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thank you trinity. My boss is a great guy, he treats me more like an equal than a subordinate. I have made up my mind to talk to him tomorrow, he knows about my problem and still puts alot of faith in me, perhaps more than i deserve. My family, well they are another story, but they have pleaded with me several times to quit my job because of stress. I have the financial means and support to take a long break, but I just can not overcome my pride and take off. my job is the only stable thing in my life, I have such great opportunity at work, but opportunities leads to stress. sometimes i wish i was a farmer, living a simple life. I have just been fighting this for so long, and i really need to get over this at whatever costs. if i let this go on for much longer it will totally destroy me. Thank you for your reply, it is good to talk about my problems as I tend to swallow everything inside. Sometime i get so angry that god would give me the talent and take away my ability. Sometimes I wish i was my ignorant to the real world and could abstain from thinking about consequences.

okay well, i need to talk about my problems and get some perspective. It really all started maybe 2.5 years ago. I was in my last year of school, and the stress of university was getting to me. I was having ahard time sleeping. I was always so tired and so zapped for energy. After school i thought my insomnia would end, but it continued. I am a really good job, and alot of responsibility, but my mind is always so clouded. I take sleeping medication every night, and it is destroying my memory. It got pretty bad laster year, i tired to take my own life, but without success. This has just totally destroyed my quality of life. I have been thinking about qutting my job and taking a year off to recouperate, but without my job I really do not have anything. I just do not know what to do, I want to live and recover but I fear I may never. i just need some advice and a friendly ear. I feel so alone. If i can recover from then I could live out my dreams. I just wish and pray this will pass. I am at my breaking point again.