truserendipity

Thanks for your insights. I am accepting things btw us as a break up, it was just him calling me up to wish me happy six months that had confussed me. It's like if your whole intention is to just breakup to begin with, why would you call. iono.. hanging in there and trying to move on one day at a time.

I've been reading the forums on this site for weeks now, trying to get and insight on my own situation, but still i'm lost and thought i'll get some insight from others. Pretty much i've gone through all the stages of crying, being depress, and just wanting my ex back. So the story goes like this: Me and my ex have been together for six months and everything was great. The first few months i would hear from him almost daily and we would talk for hours. But the past two months our conversations was cut down to a few minutes here and there. He has given the excuses that we're just too busy with school and work, and it's just harder to find time to talk with each other and see each other. But regardless i was able to find time to spend with him when he said he couldn't. Because we go to different colleges, we usually only see each other once a week, during the weekend. But a month or so before things ended between us, that once a week time just started to disappear. He tells me that he's just too tired after work. But the thing that has gotten me is that during the time we use to talk on the phone or go out.... he uses it to play games, watch tv. etc. Another thing i noticed is that we use to talk on aim a lot too, but he would spend less time on and play his games. I even learned that he'd be hiding so he wouldn't appear to be online, and i couldn't help feel that he was hidding from me. I just keep telling myself that this guy just needs to grow up and get his property straight and i shouldn't bother to stay with him. But i find it hard to just let go. So we went through 2weeks not seeing each other, and about a week of barely talking, after getting fustrated with things i confronted him of everything and mentioned that maybe we needed a break. Well long story short he had wanted to end things but then said we should probably go on a break. He told me that we're not broken up but just on a "break," and we'll see how things go when there's more time for each other I questioned him how long our break was going to be and he said the there's no schedule to it, that it's endless and we would just have to see how things go. My friends told me that he just used the term "break" to take the easy way out in saying to breakup. So i accepted what they said and took it as a breakup, but a few days later he calls me and says happy 6 months anniversary, talked a little, said he'll talk with me later in the week, and ended the conversation with saying he loved me. What am i suppose to take of that? Where do we stand in this relationship? It's been a week now since i last heard from him, but i haven't heard from him since. And i find myself finding him hiding after he logs on to aim. I dont know what's going on in his head, our where we stand in this relationship.... i need help