As of late I've been feeling down, and I oddly keep thinking of "her".
I dated this chick for 4 months, it was rocky, but oddly - I fell for her hard before she dumped me. So the breakup was hard on me, mentally and emotionally - so, healing was a little hard.
She wanted to remain frineds, we had become 'best friends' throughout the relationship - and we both were in so deep. In the beginning of the breakup, I found it hard to just be friends - I still wanted her etc. I of course started dating, as not thinking I should take a break. Time went on - lots of more issues - and I agreed to be her friend. For the past 2 months, after visiting with my family - I came to the conclussion that I cannot even talk to this girl, let alone being friends. So I started to shut off all contact with her - none - but she would still call me, email, and message. I never returned any of those, but I talked with her if she made the effort.
I still love this woman, but everytime we are together it just brings me down, we talk it brings me down because it gets me thinking of the old times. I just started to become tough, and being able to brush her off - being strong. Now, the thoughts are in my head, and all the good times we had together - I just want her back.
The only thing that makes this girl different from the rest - was my inital thoughts in my head even before I spoke a word to her. The damn voice in my head, just said unconsciously 'I'm going to marry this girl' - ever since then, I was hooked.
In order to get back together - what should I do? Right now, I dont and won't talk to her - still healing? Do I give it more time, and let her come to me? We're oh so stubborn people.
Advice?