Thanks for the messages everyone... they have really helped me deal with this as i go on... Its nice to see other points of view.
We talked last night. I had to force him to talk. Now he is saying that I'll never trust him again, that I will never respect him, etc. So why should he try to make it work. He says I have hurt you so bad that you could never recover.... In my heart i feel I can forgive him after sleeping on it and talking with him. I have NOT told him this. I asked him repeatedly if there was anything else that he had not told me. His answer was no. But i feel in my heart he is lying. Cause i don't think he could bear hurting me again. He even said, "i shouldn't have told you and you wouldn't be hurting now"... Today he is supposed to be looking for a counselor for us to talk to. I want to work this out. I really do. But i am sooooo scarred. And sooo injured right now. I feel so weak, small, unloved, undesirable... [/b]