UltraConfused

It's not that she snapped at me... I don't know what it is... It just felt different. Like when I was with her I wanted to be alone or I was bored or something... It's happened 3 times now... I told her yesterday and now she doesn't think I want her... Which I told her isn't true... she's everything that I want... I can't even imagine being without her... I just don't understand what's wrong with me.

Where to start... About 6 months ago I met this girl through a friend... actually my best friend's then love interest. The first time I met her I didn't really consider her as an 'option' so to speak because I thought she was way out of my league... she's a barfly, very attractive... and I'm basically a computer gamer... games were my life for a while. We actually went out on casual double dates... and they went horribly because I was too shy to talk to her... but she kept coming back for some reason... then one day at a restaurant we just asked each other questions about each other... down to sexual history, everything... With every answer I became more and more attracted to her... we went to her house, even though we talked for a long time, I had no idea how I did... until when we got back to her house she asked me to come in. To make a long story short... She was perfect, everything to me. We only dated for about 2 weeks before we started going out... Then after about 2 months I told her I loved her... But at about 3 and a half months I started questioning it... We've been together about 6 months now... fighting on and off, but that's normal... and not over anything really big... little stuff here and there, misunderstandings. Then just this last weekend, it was the day we decided to celebrate our 6 month weekend, and I talked to her on the phone early in the morning, and she got mad at me for something... and it's just like something snapped... And it's like whenever I think about her when I'm not with her I get this feeling... and even when I was with her. I had the same feeling when I was with my ex-girlfriend before I told her I wanted to be friends... but then a year or so later (this is about 2 years ago) she came to see me again and it was just like I felt attracted to her all over again. I don't know if it's love any more but I am attracted to so many things about her... all the little details... And she is so good to me... I don't want to hurt her and frankly I don't want this to end... but I just feel different somehow after that incident. I just wish I could know for sure if I am in love with her.