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and by the way when i asked him yesterday not to call me again his answer was "i can call and if you dont want to answer then just dont", and the reason he is saying this is because he knows i will be tempted to answer him once he calls. he didnt say please lets keep on talking or sure i respect your wishes, he just have to play my feelings always no matter what.

I don't know any of you guys, but I appreciate your replies and i understand the presumptions that some of you have towards me. However, I am here looking for help for support because i hate what happened to me, and i know that if I loose my husband i wil never have a chance like this before in my life. this guy have destroyed me emotionally and i kept thinking that one day he will appreciate how good i am. i feel i am in hole and im trying to get out. at least i am admitting i did something wrong, but again it is so hard to just move on after being with someone every day for the last 3 and half years. i do appreciate all the feed back and i pray to god who's watching me and knows me and knows what kind of a peson i really am to help me get out of this...

i have a great husband and i cant tell him what i have been doing for the last 3 and a half years. i do wanna move on nd feel like all this was just a nightmare, however i know he will find way to play my feelings again. i wih i know what to expect once i start ignoring his calls so i can be prepared.......manipulative men of his kin will move on as well or will he attempt to reaching me and talking to me ...........

i want to have the strenght to be able to cut all ties with him.... i feel weak used vulnerable and i know i will be tempted and he knows how i feel. he knows that i am not able to move on even if i want to.. however i am also wondering that if i ever succeed on ignoring him wouldnt that make him want to get me back especially when he realizes that he cant use me anymore, that he doesnt have the prey that he used to have...

you guys are all making me cry, because if you really know how bad i want to get out of this you would feel bad for me. it is out of my control and he knows it and he knows every good thing about me. i trated him better than i treat my husband, but i dont have control over this. i feel i am so vulnerable. i get so depressed when he is fighting with me. he claims he loves me so much but he doesnt acte a fraction of how good i act with him. i have evrything that a man wants in a woman and he takes advantage and takes everything for granted becase i am always there for him but i cant say the same about him... i hurt so much.

obviusly i do have a relationship with this guy. i have been very careful not to let my husband find out anything i took all the precautions. now whether i like t or not i am very attached to this guy and i have gave in so much emotinally for him. hen he brakes up with me that means he ends what we were having going on. i m addicted to him, attached to him, but i am alays the one working on making things going smooth. i just dont know what to do anymore . it hurts not to keep on talking to him, but it hurts to feel that i am at his mercy too.....

Hi. i am a 36 year old happily married woman, very beautiful, educated, intelligent. 3 years ago while chatting online i met a married men whose from my same background. he sounded a mature man so we started talking and it became a daily thing, next we started talking on the phone. we became so atached having cyber sex, talking about everythng, fighting, laughing, sharing. i sent him pictures of mine and i kept on doing while being careful my husband doenst notice anything. i was really honest, pleasant, nice, sweet, very loving, spoiling him. so he sent me picture of him. a while after and thru lots of ups and downs he decided tobreak up with me but he would never stop taling to me on a daily basis, non-stop, then he decided t go away with his family for a month and a half, and he said he will keep in touch. well he didnt and i started feeling better because i felt i was the one who was always giving to him and he was so controlling, however he already confessed of his love to me. when he came back from his vacation he admitted that the picture that he sent me wasnt his and that he lied about his age and that he would like to see me. i said ok and i was looking forward to see him. i realised later that he changed his mind and he never sent me a real picture of him. we are still talking he sees me on my web cam, we have sex on the phone, he knows he can get hold of me anytime he wants to but i cant. he never ever sent me a gift, he gets so moody he knows i am very vulnerable because he have much more control over the relationship than i do.... sometimes i wish i never see him again but as soon as he calls me i gave in. i am so addicted to him, we r not planning on seeing each other he lies about 40 miles away . i am very much into him emotionally, but when i get mad about something he seems like he doesnt care.... i am not looking to run my marriage , however i like this guy and i like whats going on, but it seems he doesnt put the effort that i put. he knows my numbers, so much about me and i trsut him, he never hurt me ever, but hes never willing to do anything for me. again i dont want much more than what im getting from him, i want him to realize that he have been taking me for granted, and i want him to realize what wil he loose if i disappear and i never answer his calls. lately he have been distant and indifferent and i told him esterday that i dont have anything to loose if i quit talking to him because i am the one wh si always giving more than he is. his answer was thats fine. i know he wil try to call me today. what should i do. i have been the best and i have put up with a lot for him and i made him a priority. i dont want to loose him i want him to realize what he got and what can he loose if he doesnt change his attitude with me .. please reply, ill nswer any questions and il apprecaite any feedback. thank you. by the way its hard not to pick up the phone and talk to him, i feel so weak and he knows that. but is it worth trying and what do u think he will react like.