Trying2MoveOn

Ok, the last couple of days i have been posting here about my relationship w/ this girl that i met. I REALLY fell for her and i fell to fast becuase now she's gone. My best friend knew how much i liked her and stabbed me in the back and now they are together. I lost the girl that i pretty much fell in love w/ and my best friend just stabbed me in the back. I dont' know what i am suppost to do. I feel so lost and hurt. Normaly in these situations i would cut myself like i dd in the past but i know i can't do taht becuase my parents pretty much search me for cuts every day. I don't know what i am suppost to do anymore....i just feel like my whole world is collapsing. My relationship w/ my dad, my friends, my family, everyone is going down the drain, i just don't know what i am suppost to do. Sometimes i just feel like it would be easier if i weren't here anymore.....if u just disappeared..or died. I don't know how i am suppost to get through this...

Ok, sinse i've posted this my friend and i have hung out and he called this girl that i was talking about and started flirting w/ her right in front of my face......he knows how i feel about her and i feel like he's trying to move in on her....he is flirting and caring on w/ her right infront of my face....i just don't know what i'm suppost to do becuase there is no way i can compete w/ him and i can't loose this girl...i just can't.

Ok, well a couple of weeks ago I met this girl and we got to know each other and i COMPLETELY fell for her.....i've never felt this way about anyone before and things are going pretty good...up until last night. Last night my best friend told me that he had feelings for her too. This is a problem becuase he is one of those guys that can get ANY girl that he wants and i think she already kinda had a thing for him but at the time we met he was "taken" so she went for me. Well like i said i have never felt this way about anyone before and i am scared out of my mind that if she finds out that he has feelings for her that she will go to him. At the same time i know how it feels to have feelings for someone and how much it hurts when they're with one of your best friends. I just don't know what to do becuase this is the one time that i feel like i can be in an actual serious relationship and i don't want to loose it, becuase i have such strong feelings for her. I don't know what i would do if i lost her but i don't want to hurt my friend either......I just dont' know what the right thing to do is.....