Ok...heres the situation..Me and my girlfriend just past our two year mark on oct 18. Things were all going good but i am a freshman in college and she is a junior in high school. I met her at an aquard time and started dating eachother shortly before her father passed away of cancer. We were great for eachother and things were goin good all the way until i left for college this past aug. Of course we had our lil fights but who doesnt when your in a relationship. Things were great when i first left even though we couldnt talk because my cell phone didnt work where i went to school. But when we did talk it was amazing.I knew she still loved me and i defidently knew i loved her. I would fall in love with her all over again every time i heard her voice. The first time i saw her was the third weekend away from home she snuckbehind her mas back and came and got me which took six hours and then we turned around and drove six hours back home. It was amazing. Then i got my new car and drove it back at 2 in the morning so i wouldnt be late for class the next day, so really i only seen her those six hours and then aother 4 hours. I missed her so much. I didnt come back until a week later and then that continued for a few weeks. We'd write eachother and tell eachother how mcuh we cared and how we'd make it past this like we always said. A few weeks later i went back home but she was out of town with her friends but she was coming back that night so i had her call me when she got close to home and made her a bubble bath with candles, slow music, fire place goin, rose pedals around the tub and she came over and i acted like i as goin to go brush my teeth and then told her to come here. i was so romantic of me and so awsome of an experience and priceless. She was so happy and i told her i felt so lucky to be with ehr and how much i loved her and how i could never replace her with anyone else in my life. And just told her she was beautiful and everything. So a couple days later i went back up to school again. The next week she said she missed me and we really didnt talk and i told her to come up with my parents for parents weekend and she said she couldnt cause she had to work. Then the next week i told her i was goin to come home friday in this letter i sent her to her house and explained how i loved her. She also wrote me one that week saying how she loves being with me and how much she loves me and cant wait to grow old with me. Andwhen she received my letter that thur. mornin she called and told me how sweet i am. And i told her i might come home ton but will def. tom afternoon if not. that after noon she calls me up saying she thinks we should break up because she said she feels like she cant handle long distance relationships and she is only a junior and she feels like she needs freedome to do what she wants and not have to worry about thigns with us and she doesnt want to do this for the next 4 years with me not being there physically for her.She would always cry so much when i had to leave back to school. So i told her ok i undestand. That night she calls me at 12:45 in the mornn sayin she was drinkin ton and she kissed another boy. I found out later she kissed him like 5 times for like a min each or longer. I was so upset. I told her she broke my heart. But i came home taht next day and she said she appologized and we slept together. Then we went down to that lake and i was like what is the problem w/ bein with me now. And she said she just doesnt want to be. So then she asked me to sleep over and i said im too confused with everything. Just im goin to stay at home. Sat. we didnt talk. and sunday i seen her and we slept togehter again. Then i left to go back to school. Then i came home that next wed and we slept together again and i took ehr out to eat and helped her with her homework. I slept over there that night cause i thought things were getting better. I asked her if we werent together could we just stayed committted to eachother. She said she doesnt even know what that means and i said come on...you've been with me for two years. She said she cant handle long dist. relationships..So i feel asleep with her in my arms, that next mornin i took her to school and was goin to use her car for the day and i reached to grab my backpack in the backseat when i got home and i seen this note. so i unraveld it and it was to her best friend about her having this huge crush on this other kid in school and he's a lil guy soccer player and this was written when we were goin out. So i told her to come get her car. than i called ehr that night and snapped on her when she was at the soccer game and everytime i talked to her for the next couple days it was a mess fighting and yelling at eachother. but she didnt even want to talk to me or see me anymore. It hurt so bad. I replayed her gettin with dude over and over again. And i said was it her choice or just his and she said it was hers. So i didnt understand. I relized seh obviously has mixed feelings w me bein gone. So i went to her work and tried to minipulate her to coming back to me but it just made her feel worse. She didnt even want to talk to me anymore or sound like she was intrested in talkin to me when we did and always had to go. I felt real bad but i couldnt do anything. After not talkin to her for a few days i cooled down and jsut though about things. I called her and left a message saying i forgive you for all thats happened and i just put myself in your shoes and who knows what would have happened either. ( but i love her soo much that i dont kow if i would have even put myself in that pos.) and she called back and we talked about it for a little bit but mostly me telling her that just after all of this i hope taht we can be friends and everything. then i called her back saying thanks for lettin me talk to her today and she said she was really happy that i did and then started asking me like waht all i did toay and evverything. But she said that we still shouldnt talk for a while because it'd be easier. And i agreed with her just not to start a conflict. That was two nights ago, she hasnt called from than or talked to me so i think she's leaving me for good. She said if its meant to be its meant to be. and none of her friends know why she just dropped everything bec i was soo good to her. she said it wasnt for nobody else either. Just some help if anyone could spare to read all this thanks
