mattducky

i totally understand how you feel. Maybes are terrible and uncertainty kills me. The hardest thing besides not knowing is that the only way it seems to get over them is to tell yourself they werent the one. problem is YOU DONT BELIEVE THAT. I have been with a beautiful young women for 3 years on and off and we are separated now. I cant function. I feel emotionally paralysed. It hurts so much becuase I have come to this point where i know she is the one for me...i love her unconditionally and i cant let it go. She just started the NC thing with me last week. Its terrible. She says she just needs time to be alone and figure herself out but the uncertainty is what drives me crazy. I know this whole situation got to this point becuase she started to have feelings for another guy who was nice to her. Now as much as i want to just give her the space my thoughts are constantly about her and what she might be doing with him and not knowing if we will ever be together again. I gave her everything and I've told her so many times how much i love and care about her. Im just worried now because im afraid that i pushed it too far and she feels suffocated. But thats it. I want her so bad that i ended up losing her now anyway. All i can say is i feel your pain man and we just gotta wait and see and try our best to make ourselves feel better and be better. Hey...that will just make her want you back more anyway.