Suncomesout

Thanks for forgetting about me so easyly. How i envy you to be so happy and in love with someone else know. I hope one day the tables are turned. I hope you will feel the depth of my suffering one day. I hate you and i miss us.

I hate you!! Driving all day, tears in my eyes. My world has never been so black. Visiting clients, back to my car, loud music, tears. I hate myself for being such an overemotional loser. I'm lost. You're madly in love again, how is it possible.. Nobody ever made me feel so loved as you did. It was out of this world. Used and left to rot i guess..

I miss you so much today. Still Cant believe you're madly in love again. You said you never loved anybody or wanted anybody like you wanted me. Love sucks.

Just nothing, again. Nothing from you, although i blocked you everywhere, i checked my spamfilter on my phone. I know i shouldnt. I miss us. It hurts, theres so much emptyness now. It's so hard to believe you're so happy now, not missing me, us.. It's so painfull and so confronting. I wish i could fast forward time and that i was in love with my real soulmate, because apparently we were not at all. Life really sucks for me at this moment.

So, i wanted to send you this message. I dont hate you, it seems i'm pretending, but i'm unable to hate. I needed the no contact, and i still do. You asked me how i went and you hoped to be friends. I'm sorry i can't. I love you to much. You are thinking i hate you but i don't. Its been hard for me, it often still is after more then two months, especially the pics you posted on unlimited profile holding hands with your new star... Maybe we talk about it in the future, maybe we don't. Anyways, good luck to me! ;-) I still love me.

I'm crying now, again. Man, i feel like such a . I'm a 43 year old man, never cried that much for someone in my life. Crazy what love can do. Totally crazy. It is getting better and better everyday, but then suddenly there are those moments like this.. dwelling, going in circles.. i'm going to stop this. I hope in a way you experienced some pain about missing me too. You probably thaught i was never going to be able to do NC. Wel i can baby, and i will survive without you.

Hey baby, again more time since hearing you. I've heard you are having the time of your life. Wow selfies on private yachts now. I wish it turned out better and i became rich as you suggested. Maybe our love could have stayed as it was before. On the other hand love should be deeper than that. I thought we would survive everything. Like you said, soulmates, unconditional, pure passion.. well i guess money talks and bs walks is a true saying unfortunatly. I wish you cared less about status and how people see you. Hapiness lies within yourself. Being happy with simple things is the key. I hope one day i find someone where i have the same click with as i had with you, but who is different on that part. I still f***ing love you and i hate it. Moments are getting better, it is very slowly fading now. I know i will get there. Good luck with your new love baby.

Getting dumped s4cks so bad, it's the worse thing i've ever experienced. Thank you. I know you've been through it yourself a long time ago. And it's crazy how people keep doing those things to eachother while most of them experienced it themself. A normal respectfull break up with a NC period would have been nice without you laying in an other mans bed after a week or so. Would have also been nice not having to hear from a aqaintance of mine that you were "tout feu tout flamme" for that guy. So you tell me you love me so much and want to be with me allways, and so much more, and 2 weeks later you're crazy in love with someone else. Crazy. Sounds like deceit to me. Just that. Thank you so much. For everything we've been thru. It was just bs, nothing, fake. cr4p.. you really are the best. You are amazing. A con, a scam pro.. You're an intimate terrorist, why do i f5cking miss you so much? I need to stop dwelling and see you for who you were. A piece of sh1tt, a narcissist.. Go mess up someone elses life. . I hate you.

I was everything you ever wanted, i was the most handsome, the nicest, the best.. if there was any superlatife you would use it for me. I have a really off day and i miss your touch, your kiss your voice. You walking in the door, candles everywhere, fireplace burning, music on, food ready. Man, what a amazing time we had, never had that so intense in my 40 years of existence. I just can't imaging you're having that with someone else now. I just can't grasp it, how can you move from relationship to relationship like that. You did it with me 3.5 years ago, and youre doing it now with another guy. You made me feel so special, like i never felt before, just to get dumped like garbage after 3.5 years. You're probaby back in the honeymoon fase. I guess you just allways need a guy who does everything for you, as soon as you need to put some effort too its too much. Easier to move on to a next target who's crazy in love with you. Looking like a devine model must make it easy to move from loser to loser. I'm so wondering where this new relationship is going to end. Man, 1 week after you came over to my place and stepped in the shower with me, got in my bed.... 2 weeks after you messaged me those sweet things while i was visiting my parents, telling i was everything you wanted, you wanted to be with me allways, etc.. Will he put up with it all and treat you like a princess, like you stated it. Like you also said, you deserve it all, the hapiness, the life, the travel, the fashion, the mansion, the walk in wardrobe.. lol. And isnt it nice you dont have to do anything for that but you can just go and claim it somewhere? I hope karma does exist. The funny thing is you tried to tell me i shouldnt be blaming you. Man, how shallow, ignorant or evil can a person be?? Can't you even see how you ripped my heart out, and how??? I cried again just now thinking about you having se1 with that guy, doing the things to him you did to me. It makes my heart bleed and my mind go crazy. So much pain. I'm so jealous of you, you're probably laughing and having fun right now. In an hour or 3 from now your probably going to a nice restaurant together. A few glasses of wine and then home.. i remember those days. Lucky you. I'll just sit here and be miserable for another 6 months or so. Don't worry about me. My heart feels like its dying but i'll live. I wis i could fast forward time. Can you believe that? I want to be older. Lol, like my 7 year old sweetheart. She wants to be older too. So happy i have her in my life, she makes it worth fighting for. One thing i gained being dumped by you, more quality time with her. Less stress about not giving you enough attention. If i read her a bed time story now and it takes a bit longer, i dont have to be agitated to come downstairs for your comments. I read its fine reading bedtime stories, it makes them more linguistical. But hey, you could totally read when you were three eh.. you must be one of natures wonders.. You're a fuc1ing a66hole!!!! I hate you. And i wish i didnt love you.

And still i miss you and wished you were coming over to have dinner, take a bath and hold me and kiss me like we used too..

You meant the world to me. We were soulmates, a match made in heaven, untill the cracks started to show. To different, different opinions on the world, different ideas, goals in life. You made me feel so loved in the beginning, it was aamazing. 3.5 years. I never cheated and kept loving you like i never loved before. I stayed home with my kid while you went out, you didnt have a kid, so you didnt have to stay in all the time the week i had mine, i didnt have to worry you said. I didnt feel comfortable with that. It turned in to more neediness from me, jealousy and clinginess. Everything to push someone away. But i couldnt live like that. I didnt know how to handle it. It was eating me from the inside. You meant the world to me, and we ed up. In august you told me so many nice things, went on holiday with me. Then you went of with a gf and changed your mind about us. You dumped me. After 3.5 years. I'm happy to see you live the jetset life you were after finally now. I could have never given that to you. Nice you posted that picture all 3 of you laughing and happy with your new bf and that other guy were the mother of my child left me for 5 years ago. That was a really nice one. ty someone showed me that. No contact for 2.5 weeks now. I wish i could ff time, it kills me to see your happy and having so much fun, while im pretending to be allright, feeling completely lost and empty. It feels like everything you ever said tom me was a big scam. I know it isnt. Things just changed and i wasnt the jetset guy you wanted to find. I should have known in the beginning, but i was blinded by love. Everyday went a bit better, its been 1.5 months since our brake up now. But that pic crushed my heart. Is that really the girl i loved so much, i had so many amazing moments with? How can one be so wrong? You never even asked me how i was doing.. never asked about my child, you said you loved so much. Unbelievable what a self centered person you allways were. Its sad to say from me, but i hope things dont work out with him. I hope you smash your pretty face against the wall and you get dumped yourself. Youre such an opportunistic person, its unbelievable. I hope you enjoy the mansion and the range rover, you must be having the time of your life right now. You selfish **** ! Hope you choke in it. (not litterally).