I am new here, and have read many of the postings, so I hope someone can help me, too.
I have been married for 10 months. Before we got married, my husband and I dated for 7 1/2 years and were engaged a year and a half of that. We have a nice home, good careers and even own a business together. We love each other very much and truly are best friends. However, every night I dream about a past love. And I mean literally every night. I really liked(I think loved) this guy in high school, and things were starting to progress in our relationship(I thought he was starting to like me too). We hung out all the time. Well, before things went any further between us, I met my husband and we have been together ever since.
I have seen my friend from high school a few times and not long after my husband and I got engaged we started talking over email. We talked about a lot of stuff going on in our lives. I even hinted at how I used to feel about him. He told me that he did like me in high school, but thought that our relationship wouldn't go anywhere because I was a "good girl" and he was a "bad guy." During the time that we talked over email every day was when I started dreaming about him. And I try to make myself stop, but I can't. Every night I dream about him and it's always about our life together. I then think about that dream all day.
I am 24 years old and think that it is stupid for me to think about him all the time. I know that I am better off where I am, my husband and I have a great future. The thing I need to know is, why am I doing this? Why do I dream about him? Why do I think about him? I try to tell myself that it's because I just wonder what would have happened if we had been more than friends in high school. I feel like I just need to get over it and move on, but how do I do that? Help!
