lil_dark_angel

Thank you, i do agree with you. Just so you know, i haven't put my life on hold because of this person.

I am petrified that this post will somehow get back to him or anyone he knows so the male in question, I will call: 'Jonathan'. 9/10 months ago I responded to a personal ad on the net. I had searched and searched on quite a few personal ad sites already and was relieved to finally find someone who really did catch my eye. The problem was that he lived in America and I am all the way over in the UK. I decided to go for it anyway. (I had contacted other people too but Jonathan was the only one I was interested in romantically.) We talked when we could. Not as often as I would have liked. Then for a few months I didn't hear anything because my pc broke and it took a long time to fix. I moved on in life and tried my luck elsewhere. I met new people but my mind occasionally went back to Jonathan. I was thinking, "I should do something!!" but I didn't because I am too shy. That was a big mistake because now I feel like I am missing out. Out of interest I went back to the personal ad website and searched for the people I had once spoken to. I didn't find Jonathans ad. It then dawned on me, I was too late he must have found someone. I talked to Jonathan via an instant messenger this morning for the first time in a few months and I learned that he is now in a relationship and that he is also in love for the second time. He did not tell me this directly I read it on a profile through a link he sent. (I can't explain fully how I feel so I'll keep this short.) I did feel a little upset because the relationship he is in must be serious and that means I have no chance whatsoever. I think that the best thing I can do is back off. I have no intentions to split them up. "There are plenty more fish in the sea" which is true. In my eyes there is no one else like him. Which is why I feel drawn to him. I would really appreciate it if anyone could give me any advice about this situation. If there is any!! Thank you for reading anyway!!