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Ahhh! ..Thats sweet. Im in my second relationship with my boyfriend of three months, he has told me how much i mean to him and he doesnt know what his life would be like without me.. we both told eachother we loved eachother after one week.. amazing considering in my first relationship we neved mentioned love and after five months we broke up. I seriously think I might want to marry my boyfriend someday. You could give her a wrapped single rose in babys breath(little white flowers.) It was a surprise for our one month anniversary.. and lets say it put a big smile on my face so im sure your girlfriend would really like it! Best wishes.. I hope things keep looking up for both of u!

What a Beautiful Poem!! it reminds me of my ex and I. Thanks for sharing it. : )

Well I was 18 when I fell for my ex-boyfriend who was 16 at the time. However HE deceded he was too immature for me and left and broke my heart.. so yeah maybe Its bad I fall for the younger guys.. whom most arent looking for anything serious at their age. : /

My first boyfriend and I broke up six months ago.. thats a lonnnng time really. But the hurt and pain is still fresh like an open wound on my heart that wont heal. During the day I try to lead a normal life and hiding my depression, try to forget it. At night though its weird my feelings are magnified.. I have time to think stupid thoughts and "feel" alone and miss him and feel hurt and confused. Sometimes I drive to some deserted parking lot after my evening college classes and listen to music and just ball my eyes out. (Love and heartbreak can make you unhealthy and crazy like never before) But the next morning I go about my business of work, school, etc. and pretend Im not dying inside. tears*sigh* : ( I miss my smile.

Thanks.. Stinkweed! lol : )

Im a 19 year old girl. I use to be like 100% shy in high school and now Im about 50% shy and 50% outgoing and in my second year of college. (I lost a lot of weight these last few years and also gained more friends/social experience through working at jobs) I guess I have a really attractive and cute face. Im short and I look a couple years younger than I am. I get hit on a lot by guys(not the kind i care for), and it really annoys me. Im also a very friendly girl to everyone which way be a problem cause guys think maybe I like them back when Im just being my nice myself. When I get all quiet sometimes they think there is something wrong or maybe Im stuck up who knows, and they dont understand thats just the introverted person coming out who Ive been most of my life. The kind of guys I like dont ever approach me. I like the cute, quiet, mysterious, sensitive and intellectual guys kinda like my former self. I also like younger guys and it hard to find any that arent immature. Ive only had one boyfriend he was 16 when i was 18.. and I thought he was wonderful even though he convinced me had personal problems and left the relationship just as I thought it was going good and it left me deeply sad and hurt. ...But I even had to first ask him out back then.

I use to not have any guy friends which is kinda weird.. but now I have quite a few.. I just dont find myself stirred by any of them.

I guess Im wondering how I get the kind of guy I like to approach me? Will they? Or do you think I intimidate them? Or am I doomed to be asking them out even though its hard when Im still kinda shy.

Humm I was shy in high school so ill try and help you out. Maybe glancing at you A lot from a distance and hoping that one time you'll catch her doing it. If you get the chance to talk to her she might smile and blush a lot (if you are even remotely funny or flirty) and might look at you real deeply for a sec and then turn to the ground or away from your gaze but is still smiling when she looks away. She looks for chances to just be around you.

Wow!.. Great poem! I loved it! : ) Made me think real deeply about those questions and the decisions me all make between them..

Its great that you can write out those deep feelings and thoughts.

It just takes some learning to love, accept, improve and just be free to be Yourself. : ) Try not to compare.

humm.. i like the cute, bright-eyed, soft, slender, boyish men type myself... however they have to have so many more important inner qualities too that brave through that exterior. But, thats Just Me, so you see?

Oh my..that poem was beautiful. You are beautiful. : )

If you read all of these Ill be impressed. lol I wrote these all within the last six months or so. During a time I had ups and downs. I cant remember the exact order I wrote them. Some are soully about myself, some relate to my breakup with my first and only ex-boyfriend, some relate to other guys, some are about my place in/view of the world, etc. Some were written when i was calm, hopeful, and enlightened, some were written when I was crying, confused, disappointed, etc. So some are in a more positive light some in a negative light. Enjoy! If you want too comment it would be appreciated. : )

*Eternal Marathon*

The gun sounds

I look around

I only start

When I see you

Take off beside me

I cant strive alone

Theres no race

To a finish

Just run WITH me..

Don't look behind

Are shadows are

Catching up to us

Lets leave them

In our dust

this day

We move forward

Steady is our pace

Just run WITH me..

Don't fall back

Ill slow down too

Lose my hope

I just couldnt do

Don't get infront of me

Ill never catch you

Even to block the wind

It intimidates me

Just run WITH me..

Air rushes past me

Like seconds ticking by

As Im spinning

Around the track

Please no more

Circles anymore

Lets veer off

make our own path

Journey together

Just run WITH me..

When the sun's fiery

Bears down

Pay no attention

To the sweat

Running down your lip

I only see and feel

Your smile

Your eyes

Focused ahead

Just run WITH me..

To the rhythm

Of our pounding feet

My heart races

Faster and faster

When I Cant

Catch my breathe

You fill my lungs

I can go forever now

Your strength is mine

Running THROUGH me..

*Excess Thoughts*

When your alone

Your thoughts are yours

No one can steal them

No one can swap them

No one can mistake them

Happy

They're all yours

You don't have to share them

But its greed you've invited for company

And it gives you a gift

The burden of excess

When your lonely

Your thoughts are yours

No one can swipe the tears

No one can replace the fears

No one can take them up in their arms

Sad

They're only yours

You don't have anyone to share them with

But its waste you've invited for company

And it gives you a gift

The burden of excess

*Who*

Who are you love?

Who walked in the store?

Who did I meet?

Who did I fall for?

Who gave me butterflies?

Who picked me up at the door?

Who made a costume?

Who wrote me a note?

Who taught me math?

Who gave me that wink?

Who opened up to me?

Who bought me flowers?

Who texted me goodnight?

Who shared with me music?

Who gave me my favorite necklace?

Who made me happy?

Who taught me so much?

Who made me laugh?

Who drove me around?

Who told me their dreams?

Who gave me my first kiss?

Who held me in their arms?

Who broke my heart?

Who made me grieve?

Who wont talk to me?

Who do I love still?

Who do I miss?

Who are you ex-love?

Do I know you?

*Unorganized Dotes of Love*

Brush back my hair

Whisper in my ear

Tell me a secret

Ill never tell dear

When we are apart

Blow me a kiss

When the distance stretches

are lips to miss

Reach for my hands

Lock with my eyes

Bare open your soul

Feed me no lies

Declare a surprise waiting

flash your clever smile

Don't give a clue

Leave me guessing awhile

Listening to my heart

beating on your chest

its sleeps softly against

your calm cushion rest

String together a line

Pick me a flower

Words have some meaning

But actions have power

Wear your own beliefs

pack an open mind

hold steady but know

change you can

*The Confusion*

Ill say anything now

just need you around

babble like a fool

chase you farther

but I dont know what to do

crazy over losing someone

cant see your face

the one I could always trace

always have a home in my heart

my heart is vacant

for everything you did and didnt do

you are forgiven

I miss you

If you were ever mistaken

im sorry

I believe in you

through what you shown upon me

If something out there stole you away

I hope you'll return someday

Its hurts now that your away

not an accusation but rather

not knowing whether you fed me lies

or hid the truth

ever loved me

like I had in me for you

I just want you

The you.. no one but me

knows of.. I knew..

*Rejecting You*

You offer up everything

Whats NOT on sale?

a salesman you try to convince

everythings right for me

You sell yourself short

There is nothing their I see

Nothing to buy for keeps

Ill earn enough for what

I really want one day

Im sorry to say

Im have nothing of me to spare you

As harsh as it seems

*Outcasts*

So I came to love insanity

As I found out only the sane are liars

Their faking everything, faking who we are

outcasts in the polluted streets

Willowing down in our own defeat

The world today we made is no longer a place I want to be

The lonely ones know but we have run into hiding

Im ashamed of ourselves when we cannot speak

No way to unite the last true minds, we weep

Give me the stars on a hill in silence

And come all you to reveal whats left, down deep

Past the hollow cavities, inside you and me

*Fighter*

Some fight with violence

An ugly appliance

Others fight with beauty

Against a beast in compliance

A fist of a fool

Knows not of

Our most powerful tool

Or are weakest weapon

Our Minds

Blood be shed

through the tearing

Of our skin

But closed minds too

Wheres our blood thin

*Picture This*

I never did see it

Till I turned it upside down

You think you know the right way

Its always suppose to go

But

oh no no

oh no no

Nothing was all you ever saw

When that's all you chose to know

Keep searching for your answer

This way isn't working

*Souls Divide Among The Land*

Im sitting on this side of the bars

For sometimes Im afraid

I see you on the otherside

And sometimes I put one leg over and teeter

I can only reach so far accross

To try and pull you back over

But maybe Im wrong

Being the one who's stuck here

Either way Im confused

They say to step over is the crime

But I see it over here all the time

Whats the difference

There is good and evil in both lands

And I see you roaming free

A soul rejected on the fringe

Without benefits of "normal" society

In a different kind of happily played misery

Where do I wanna be

They wont let me choose

So Im still dangling here on the edge

Between everything

I wish we were birds

but I wouldnt perch here

The land would be one

And we would all be beautiful creatures

*First Love*

My beautiful butterfly

Your wings glided so freely

A creature I longed to be

One day you came by me

A flutter of color

Against my pale sky

You just so happened

to catch my lonely eye

All say I only bloomed for you

If you'll let me dear

I was the brightest color

Cause you were my inspiration

When you landed so softly

On my delicate surface

I was afraid

But not for long

You sang me a song

in butterfly silence

I wanted to smile

But your song was sad

You stayed a while

And told me secrets

Of a journey

And I listened

You told me I was beautiful

But did I forget to tell you the same

you were rubbed the wrong way

but you are never to blame

You hadnt expected to stay

So one day you left

And that was when

I slowly wilted away

I lost my love

Before a cruel summer

Miss the soothing rain

Where we had blown about and played

I lost sight of you

Your glow, your presense

I lost sight of myself

I plucked my petals for existence

I just couldn't bear

the element of pain

But is my heart wise or mistaken

To find a love like you again

Yeah this is long but I need to share and would like anyone's opinions/thoughts.. Well i am a courtesy clerk/bagger at a grocery store. I've worked their a year. Ok so I got to work with the new hiree we will call him G whos first day was on Friday. It was me, G and three other guy courtesy clerks working. He is about my age cause I found out he is a freshman in college at a local community college (not the one I go to). I went into the store's office a couple weeks ago and he was in there getting interviewed. At first glance I thought he was really cute.. so I was excited when the new guy turned out to be him.

In my opinion he isnt really the type of guy that girls would go for. He is cute in a little bit of a dorky way and he is really thin, but I actually kinda like thin guys. I am a pretty independent and shy girl myself and ive never had a boyfriend before. I would say I'm pretty attractive cause guys kinda hit on me. Although I use to be chubby so i havent always felt good about my looks. So that isnt really a problem. Sometimes I try to act more outgoing and confident than I really am. I guess to cover up my shyness or work on my shyness?

I started to tell G what he could do and where stuff was, etc. because he was kinda lost on his first day. Usually Im a big mumbler and am pretty quiet, reserved. But instead I was talkative and asked G some questions cause I wanted him get to know him a little and make him feel welcome. We kept kinda exchanging smiles while we were working, I couldnt help it and oh my gosh he has a really cute dimple! lol So anyways he mumbled his answers a lot, and paused a long time when i asked him a simple question like what classes he was taking and one time he looked kinda nervous and swallowed.

I really hope I didnt go overboard with the guy. Im just worried I went to fast with everything, and came off as too outgoing or annoying lol. I mean it was his first day and I could sense he was a little anxious. I just wanted to try and help him and seem interested cause I am. I hope he doesnt see me as pushy or bossy or too forward. I probably freaked him out a little cause I know how from being shy myself, when your shy and in a new situation you can get that way. Maybe he isnt really that shy just nervous on his first day? Or do you think he might have felt intimidated by me? Any advice/thoughts/ or opinions would be appreciated..

This post may be a little off the matter.. but It gave me the idea/chance to right out some things and I guess I'll just share them. Being a shy girl myself for the most part, I'd like to give some of my input.. First off in response to other people's posts, my opinion: being shy doesn't mean you would rather stay at home and be alone, or that you dont like to joke around and have fun.

I think my shyness has developed from a few things. To be honest I'm insecure a lot of times and worry a lot about what other people think of me, which I know I shouldn't. I am more of a quiet person naturally and am a better listener and tend to keep things to myself. When I was in middle school I was kinda chubby which gave me low self-esteem going into high school. I am a pretty sensitive person and have a guard up a lot of the time. I am 18 and out of high school now, more aware of who my true friends are, because I've wound up in a "wrong group of friends" a couple times in school. I have a job now in which I have to be more outgoing with customers and coworkers and that has really helped me.

I still I still have never had a boyfriend or had anyone ask me out. I think I have had guys like me but they have never done anything about it or they were the creepy kind that hit on you like your a piece of meat. I did ask a guy from work to the Sadies dance but thats it, I dont know how I even got the nerve to do that. I have a lot of people ask why I dont have a boyfriend because I'm really cute, sweet, etc.

In a group setting sometimes it is hard to join in, sometimes when you think of something, you feel rude if you but in when someone else is talking and then your chance to say something passes. Because I may not talk as much with the individuals in the group I may sometimes feel unapart of the subject at hand and feel more obscure. I love it when people almost ignore the fact that I'm shy and carry on with me like I'm not. Generally that makes me less shy. They probably know your shy but they dont comment about the fact or tease you or ask you dumblly why dont you talk or why are you so quiet cause that only makes you worse, more uneasy. When I am on the right comfort level with someone I can talk about just anything but thats rare. Well in school and at work if I like I guy this is how I act. I tend to be kinda quiet at first, I probably dont know them very well yet so I am just cautious, nervous, dont know what to talk about. This can lead others to think I'm stuck up, not interested, or just really boring I dont know.. In school I just glanced at them mostly, one time I really liked a guy and got to sit next to him. I never had to much trouble with eye contact. I would laugh and smile ALOT. I do this alot to cover up shyness or appear to be more open in general though. (If a guy I liked gave me any reason to laugh or smile I would.) If I'm not as chipper one day I am probably not having a good day or something is upsetting me between me and the guy. It is easier to flirt with someone who is more outgoing, funny, talkative than me but at the same time they are usually more intimidating. If I like a shy guy it is even harder because they might find me intimidating and I have to try the eniciating which is extra hard. They are hard to get a read on or flirt with cause they too open up slower. Also when I'm around a guy I like I will be talkative when they ask me something one minute and the next minute I will kind of clam up. Sometimes I feel like I have to keep things up and so I will ask some question, just so they wont be put off by my moment of quietness. lol If you like a shy girl dont give up on her unless she appears to have no return interest, avoids invitations,etc. If she likes you she will be really excited every time you approach her, even if she is speechless past the hi. I know I get more comfortable with people as time goes on. I recommend asking her to do something with you cause she probably wont eniciate(spell).

If your still reading this.. hope I didnt bore you.. This was a great way for me to look into my own feelings and actions, sorry if you dont get anything out of this ramble.. good luck with your shy girl.

I want to get my coworker/friend something for his birthday. We work at a grocery store and he will be 19. We flirt a lot but he just wants to keep the work relationship we have. Any ideas please, anything...

Thanx for the coaching lol and encouragement.. well I leave for work in about twenty minutes at least all have four hours to think things through before he clocks on. I am a little tense cause so many things have to go right, like you said but i think I can do it. "J" and I dont have each others phone #'s or anything I guess I have to exchange if we do make plans. ahhh.. I hope I dont chicken out. But anyway, thanx again I might try your approach if the timing is right.

Carter.. I think he might be interested in me but I'm not sure. A lot of the guys at work like to joke with me and what not but they have girlfriends. So i guess its just all in a friendly way. Did you reed the earlier topic, that has some situations I've had with him. I am not sure if he has a girlfriend still, but one of the cashiers said he doesnt anymore. I might take your line and use it but I dont know how I can ask when were busy and there are people all around. Should I try to catch him outside while he is on cart duty?

If you could please read an earlier post of mine you could get some more background. Called "This guy at my work" in attraction and flirting forum.

Anyways I go to work in a couple of hours and I'm going to be working with "J" my coworker/friend that I like at work, later on in the day for three hours. This is the only day I will see him for this week and I want to ask him to Sadies. Sadies is a dance on March 11 where the girl is suppose to ask a guy. He doesnt go to my high school although his younger brother does. A couple of cashiers at work already know I like him so I cant back out. Two set backs would be that I was told he broke up with his girlfriend by one of the cashiers but I'm not sure if thats true, and I know he plays soccer so he might have a game on a friday night. There is also another girl at my work that likes him but I have to put that aside. I work at a grocery store and want to know how I should ask him to go with me. Should I write it out, pull him aside and ask him, or do something like call the service desk when he is standing there cause he always runs to be the one to answer the phone and ask him? Any other ideas, suggestions, opinions would be great. Today would be the day to ask him otherwise I would have to call or come in and ask, I need to find out cause the dance is next Friday. I've only been to one other dance in HS and that was Homecoming with some of my girl friends. I've never had a boyfriend or asked a guy to do something with me. I'm really nervous! Please, any advice would be appreciated...

I work at a grocery store, and there is a guy I work with, will call him J. I've worked there about four months and he started about two months ago. I've worked with him probably more than anyone else cause we both work after school hours. He turned 18 a couple weeks ago. At first I wasn't sure I was attracted to him and he has some acne, but now I can't stop thinking about him. I'm not sure if I like him as a good guy friend or more (maybe cause I've never truly had guy friends.) We kind of tease each other, but I'm not sure if its just in a friendly way. When he first started I asked if he would help me fill up the paper bags in the checkstands and he did but not all the way. I told him I was a perfectionist and so he went back and filled them all up to the top for me. A few days before V-day I was blowing up these annoying, loud singing balloons in the floral department. Well everytime one got blown up or tapped it played about ten seconds. He came by about five different times and hits them all. They start playing different songs and making a ruckus, and I'm just laughing and telling him to stop each time. Sometimes I'll just start smiling and he'll smile and be like what? Two different times I've commented when I noticed he got his hair cut. He got all embarrassed and thought it was because it looked bad. I knew that he had a girlfriend when he mentioned her a while back, so I just thought ooh he's taken all this time. Well last Saturday I was working and that day he had requested of for soccer. He came in with his soccer clothes on to check his schedule and buy something. I was at the other end of the store so we didn't exchange hellos or anything I don't know if he saw me or not. Well later on me and another courtesy clerk "A" were bagging for Jackie the cashier. She is one of the cashiers I talk to the most but I've never told anyone I kind of like Jared. So "A" who is 16 and kind of looks like me except she she has blue eyes and is probably prettier, and also more outgoing, starts telling Jackie that he looked up at her while looking at his schedule and turned around and smiled and said goodbye to her and Yolanda (another cashier) as he left. In my head I was like whoa….and I said who are you talking about and she was like..well… um.. hum…Jared. I said, "why do you like him?" She said "yeah" and then without thinking I blurted So do I!.. but he has a girlfriend. "A" is like "really?" Jackie then says no he told me he broke up with her. After that it was kind of weird being around "A" cause we are both coworker friends. I didn't know she liked him and I didn't realize that I do really like him until that instant I blurted So do I! Anyways this week Me and her both don't get to work with him. I usually get too and I'm sad. I hope neither A nor Jackie tells anyone anything. I kind of don't know what to do. I guess see how things roll I wish the other girl didn't like him too I thought I was the only one. feeling confused..

Thank you for your advice. He still hasnt contacted me so I guess that means two things. He may have decided to not email me but I would think,what the heck? since he sure seemed receptive to me and showed an interest. Im hoping now its because he lost the paper.. I think I'll wait another week and then casually go in. Well see what happens... I have hope.. I have a somewhat silly question.. You know how sometimes you get caught in the moment of introduction and the person tells you there name and you forget it.. I only told him mine once and never put it on the paper.. Would you be to embarrassed to contact the person if you forget their name? Am I ready to much into things? lol oh well

Anyways to start I'm 17( I look about 15), a senoir and have never had a boyfriend. Im kinda quiet and shy around people esp. guys although my job has helped me overcome some of this. I have gone into a semi-local record store a few times over the past few months and have had conversations with one of the workers. He has friendly, helpful, and was teasing me in a good way. Like he told me he was my personal shopper and to come right to him next time I came in. So me being me when I talk to him I am smiling none stop probably cause he is smiling too, I am kinda nervous but to my surprise carry on conversation pretty well. By the way my face felt like a flaming cherry hope it didnt look like one. He was really cute and was almost as short as me.. I'm 5'3" I thought he was maybe 17 or 18. So the last time I went in (last Weds) I psyched myself up to ask if he want to go see a movie with me some time. He said yes and then asked me for my phone number and email. The funny thing is at this time I realized he didnt know my name but I knew his. So we shook hands and exchanged names. I was so stupid at that moment that when I wrote down my number and email I didnt put the area code and I didnt put my name. The piece of paper was really small too. By the way I didnt ask for his is that bad? So after that I felt more relieved and we walked to another section of cds and kept talking. This is when I find out he is 20 and a Junior at the state university. Took me a little by surprise. He also lives in a city/town between the university and the record store. After that our convo continued well, and we talked about our own Christmas plans, what music we liked, etc. So since he had to get back to work cause their were customers in the store lol I finally left and I told him to call or email me whenever. He said I will. So he hasnt called or emailed me yet. I'm not trying to sound over eager cause I know he said he was working Thurs and maybe Sun and he was having a gift exchange party with frinds Chistmas Eve and spending Christmas over at his Grandma's. I was just wondering if he will contact me or not is it to soon to tell? If he doesnt I'll wonder if somehow he wasn't interested or if he lost the little piece of paper he put in his pocket. I know I probably sound to desperate or paranoyed but I just felt those happy butterflies around him you know? I would appreciate your comments/ opinions on the situation. P.S sorry if the smiles were annoying..

The 5 things that attract me(not in this order):

Funny- If you can say or do little things to make others laugh or smile, that's a plus. I like a guy with a humor who doesn't use it at the expense of others. A guy who is playful and isn't afraid to laugh too.

Intelligent- I like someone who has some book smarts but not a lot. He can't be a total slacker when it comes to learning. Common sense is important and if he is knowledgeable about something he's interested in that's nice too.

Sensitive- I like someone who isn't afraid to show his real feelings sometimes. I like to know the guy is actually human and has emotion lol if that makes sense. Someone who can read your feelings and be able to comfort, congratulate you, etc. at the right time.

Trustworthy- The guy has to be trustworthy and honest with me. No one likes someone who goes behind their back, breaks promises, or lies to your face, right?

As far as physical attraction:

Good looking/handsome face- Well I have to be honest and say that I am one sucker for a cute face. The guys I've been attracted too have some feature(s) on their head/face that draw me to them, but their bodies have all been different (height, weight, etc).

The 5 things I could care less about:

Nice butt- its kind of hard to tell what a guys butt looks like anyway, the type of pants often make it look different

Sporty- if the guy doesn't play sports that much but has other interests thats ok

Height- I could see myself with a guy short like me, medium or tall so this doesn't matter

Different/ not your normal person- We are all different, and there is no such thing as normal anyway

Well off down below- this has never really passed my mind when I think about a guy. I guess as long as its in working order lol.

I have trouble talking to guys cause I'm shy too.. but hear is what I think. It sounds like you two hit it off pretty well. What do you talk about for 5 to 10 mins?, Maybe you could try walking with her to where her friends hang out at lunch. If you don't feel comfortable around all those people I suggest you try to get to know her by asking if she would do a certain activity with you sometime. Maybe ask for her number if your brave, so you could talk more and get to know each other. Are you sure she isn't seeing anyone? And does she hang out with many guys? Maybe the hugs are something special maybe not but mentioning you come hang out with her friends means she definetely likes you to some degree. You can do it, get to know her better, show her your interested and then maybe ask her out. Dont let this opportunity pass by. Good Luck..

Boxers or briefs: boxers

Curly or straight hair: straight

Tall or short: tall would be best but at least my height 5'3"

Six pack or muscular arms: On the slim side/little bit of muscule or swimmer's bod

Good or bad guys: good

Hat or no hat: hats can look good but not worn every day I like to see hair too

Ears pierced or not: sure, actually I've discovered that a lot of the guys I've been attracted too have piercing(s) Nothing too big or distracting though

Tan or no Tan: Anything tanner than pale white

Dimples or not: Dimples are nice

Stubble or neatly shaven: shaven perhaps a little stuble

Rugged or sporty: in between

Studly or cutie: both leaning on the cutie side

Accent or not: dont care

Glasses: if their not whorn all the time otherwise contacts

Smart or dumb: On the smart side

What sport should he play: Whatever he wants too I guess.

Its neat to see how people's tastes are so different, something for everyone.

My very first post.. YAY! anywhoo

If it makes you feel better.. I tend to like the boyish look myself..

Maybe because I look 14-15 although I'm 17 + I'm pretty short. I'm shy too but I'm tryin to accept/work on that too.