Ok here goes....I met my x at school and we were together from about the age of 17 for nearly 2 years. It was the first real relationship for both us. Last year I started University, this ment 4 weeks apart from each other at a time which is going to put strain on any relationship. It was working fine we used to visit each other when we could and talk on the phone and text each other everyday.
The problems started last term (about 18 weeks ago) she always thought i was her sole mate and wanted to spend rest of life with me but although i loved her lots I wasn't sure if I wanted to spend rest of life with only proper g/f I ever had without seeing other girls. About 15 weeks ago I split up with her on the phone, I think it came very suddenly to her. For the next month or so she bascially begged me to get back with her i am idiot and said no.
We still talked on the phone after that and i think she cried for about 6 weeks solid (when we split up). After a little while i started going out iwth this other girl (i now relise this was probably rebound relationship or somink). I then realised that still had feelings for x, because of this I explained situation to other girl and we split up. I still didn't say nethink to my x about feelings i still had at this point as wanted to be 100% sure what i felt becuase didn't want to hurt her a second time and I thought that i would be coming back from uni for a long time soon so would wait few weeks (she still said on phone at this time that would take me back).
A few weeks before I was due to come back from uni she stoped texting or phoning me at all (about 5 weeks ago). I wondered y this was and turns out she had found another bloke, at this point i thought it was best to tell her how i feel, I phoned her and we talked about it but she said she was ova me and i was to late.
I came back from uni about 3 weeks ago. I found out situation with this other bloke and they are not really seeing each other. I really wanted to meet up with her so I kept texting her and stuff to see if she would but she said it was to soon and wouldn't meet up with me. She also said she wanted me to leave her alone.
Then I droped back the contact abit we still sent text's to each other with polite conversation and I phoned her and we chatted for bit. Few days later she phoned me for first time in ages and we chatted for hours. Next day I phoned her and we chatted for hours again but then she said talking to days in row was to much and that i shouldn't contact her. Next day she phoned me again? At this stage i really confused?? I didn't say nethink as we seemed to be getting on well. I then went clubbing and saw her when was there but tried to talk to her and she wouldn;t even have a conversation with me. A couple of days later she agreed to meet up.
We met and it kinda seemed like olds times we chatted and laughed together, then we lay on my bed just looking at each other for 15mins then we ended up kisses. After we kissed she said it was a mistake and left my house quickly and said kiss didn't mean wanted to get back with me.
2 weeks ago (as she is in my group of friends) about 6 of us went clubbing together (her included) and she wouldn't really talk to me at all. We still talk on phone often but I not sure if she likes to. We went clubbing as a group again other day and again she just didn;t talk to me and she when she left she huged every1 before except me who she wouldn't even say goodbye to or look at.
I want to meet up again but she says it is to soon. She says she is ova me and that we can neva get back together, i also asked if she thought i was attractive any more and she said no. I miss her alot every day but I dont now how i can get her back? I caused her alot of pain and really hurt her bad when split up. Was I to late??
