i want this life to be over. i really do.ive had enuff of the people ive had enuff of the society we blindly follow. I hate myself and i hate my life but what can i do? kill myself? I have a beautiful daughter. the only ray of light in my life.I wouldnt abandon her to the life i despise so much without giving her all the energy i can.but noone understands me, noone knows how hard almost every moment is to get thru. its like i feel nothing...and that makes me feel sad.and that makes me feel pathetic.no happiness.no joy at least nothing of note.but it goes deeper than that.i feel like a child expected to be an adult in an adults world.im not a child matter of fact im not a teenager.im a dad.im a partner.im almost a failure.im burnt out.i cant take much more but when the only option to make the hurt go away isnt available what happens when i hit rock bottom.then again i think i hit rock bottom long ago.im so tired.i feel like a guest at a house thats stayed too long.i feel like an old man ready to die.im sorry if this sounds crazy im also physically tired.
