NathanielR

you know, i'm really sorry to hear that... That's horrible.. You must be a strong person to have made it that long... Cause I know i'm not going to make it that far.. My life is so unhappy... I barely have any friends, and the ones i do have are scattered accross the globe.. My familys tiny... I have no contact with anyone except my parents, who've recently sepperated... And who'm I've never been close to... I can't hack it.. There's nothing good in my life... There's never been anything good in my life.. There's never been a single period in my life when I've been able to say I was happy... Only bad things have ever happened to me.. And now after all of that, i've found myself with no friends, no family and no one special in my life... I'd rather be dead than alone... And i've been alone for as long as Ican remember... I wish things could have been different. I'm gonna wait till i'm 21... try my hardest to stay possitive till then... try my hardest to find somebody. But if i'm still like this by then, I know i'm going to drift into a deeper and deeper depression... And I don't want that.. I don't want that life.. sorry.... I don't even know why i'm writing this.... there's no point to it! sorry.

Ok I am a total freak... There has got to be something wrong with me...it's as if I'm cursed or something... I can't believe I've reached 20 and still have never had a girlfriend, and am still a virgin.... No one believes me when I tell them.. It's not even as if girls don't find me attractive either... I'm good looking, funny, nice, intelligent, well educated, self confident, I have a great body, ..and I'm an actor... But I just never seem to meet anyone.. This last month I briefly dated a girl, but it turned out I was a sort of rebound, cause she got back together with her ex as soon as he decided he wanted her back.. Then I fooled this other girl, but lost contact with her the next day... niether of us had each others numbers... Every damn girl I meet or work with on set flirts with me.. My best friend turned out to be madly in love with me, but when I found out she had left the country.... I mean god dammit!!!! What the hell is wrong with me??? Basicaly my problem is I think, that because I hardly ever meet single girls, who'm i'd like to date, I always run after the first person I find,, regardless of whether they'd be right for me or not...and then I end up chasing them for months, even when I know will ever happen! Where do you meet people?? I wish I knew!! I wish I knew how to meet people outside of my acting world...