MovieGuy18

Day 3 of no contact. Who even knows how many times I have tried NC at this point... My ex girlfriend usually tries contacting me after about 5 days or so if we don't talk, so I'm expecting her to try and contact me any day now. We had a discussion about our relationship and it ended up turning into a bit of an argument. Not the way I wanted to leave things, so I apologized for what the conversation turned into and from what I can tell, she accepted my apology but she doesn't seem interested in talking right now. I find myself thinking about her very often, even after almost three months since the break up. I hope that things can turn around for our relationship and even though I try to keep busy (working full-time, going to the gym, seeing friends, playing video games), I can't seem to stop thinking about her, at least not for long anyway.

You're probably right. I just keep having hope that maybe these little things she says means she is second guessing her choice to break up with me or something. I should probably just continue no contact until she has something to say about that, if she does. She hasn't said anything about us getting together to see and talk to each other, I have been the only one to make that suggestion, though she has said she would "love to, but as friends."

Well, I am now back to Day 1 NC haha. I responded to her message about my grandfather a day later. I was pretty busy at the time, so I texted her later again last night and asked how she was, she said she was doing well academically in school, but not emotionally, and then asked if we can talk later because she is "in the middle of a serious conversation..." She finished the conversation by saying "I miss my best friend." To which, I didn't respond, because I'm not going to be just a friend. My gut tells me she was having this serious conversation with the other dude she is rebounding with. I bet he isn't comfortable with her talking to me, but that's too bad for him. Then again, I could be completely wrong about the conversation, but who knows. I didn't reveal too much about myself and kept my messages to her short. No emoticons, just basic information. I just told her text me when she has the time and that I'm here to talk if she needs to. She sent me a few emoticons, which doesn't really mean anything but she hasn't done much of that since our break up two months ago. So, until she texts me and says something that's important, like asking me to get together and talk or do something, or talks to me about getting back together, then I'm back to NC once more. Which reminds me, tomorrow would be our two-year anniversary had we stayed together... Wonder if she will say anything about that.

Exactly what I am thinking, I just don't want to come accross as bitter or angry or something like that when she is going out of her way to show compassion and caring about my grandfather, but I also don't want to feel like she is using that as a reason to talk to me and that's all. I told her we couldn't be friends, then after a long time, said we can try, and then flipped again and said that I can hide how I feel and pretend that I can be friends. I don't want to flip flop anymore, I'm sticking to my guns on this.

I am now at day 6 no contact. I find myself thinking about her a night. I work almost every day till 9:30 and start thinking of her as my shifts go on. She texted me last night as I was finishing my closing shift. She knows I have been busy with work and that I close basically everyday so her texting me at that time is no coincidence. I have told her about how my grandfather may have cancer and that he is getting scans done to see how far it is. Right now, it is being treated as scar tissue until they can see a difference in size in the next scan. She said "I'm hoping that you received good news about your grandfather!" I chose not to respond, but should I say something to her about it (like, things are looking okay right now, thanks) or just wait until she messages me again on her own? Apparently, she is dating someone else, so I don't want her to feel like if she texts me, I will always answer. I want her to realize that I will be gone from her life if she doesn't want to be with me again, because I obviously don't want to be just friends.