2 years ago I met this man who was wonderful. He connected with me on so many levels. We had a whirlwind relationship, talked about him moving in, and I even got pregnant with his child. One day I found out his was married and after several bad discussions, I walked away and hid. I did have his son who is now 22 months old. I felt I did the right thing by walking away. I knew he was unhappy to run to me, but he had made a choice and if he truly wanted to be with me, he would have left his wife, not impregnated her 2 weeks before I had his child.
Last week my x husband contacted me with a message from this man. It had been almost 2 years since I spoke with him. We started talking, I took his son to meet him and everything I once felt came rushing back to me. Nothing happened that day that I am ashamed of. I allowed him to meet his child. (If I keep saying it, Ill believe it sooner or later, right??).
Since that day, we have talked over and over and last night I knew I had to walk away. He is insistent that I remain in contact with him. He refuses to loose me once again. Says he is leaving his wife and wants to move forward with me.
What do I do?? If I see him again, I know I wont be able to hold back. If I talk to him again, I know I will fall so deeply in love with him I will not be able to distinguish the truth from fiction. I told him that he needs to tell his wife he wants out and that he has had contact with me. I feel terrible walking away with his son.
I want nothing with him as long as he is still in the marriage, yet I find myself pulled back in with each word he says to me. Could he possibly mean what he says when he tells me I am the one for him, that he loves me and that I am the one he is meant to be with?
