i don't know where to begin. was it all a lie? do you have no regrets? how do you sleep at night knowing you cut someone off WITHOUT telling them why? or giving them a chance? and why would you say that "maybe in the future..." that's not fair knowing how much i loved you. i really wish you could have approached me about what ever it is that made you decide to leave me before it got to a point where you took that decision on your own. i used to think that relationships are a two way street, but after you broke up with me i have struggled to keep faith in anything. i still struggle. i can't trust anyone i meet anymore for fear of being vulnerable like that again. it has changed me, our relationship, i don't know for the better or worse but i have definitely changed. i keep changing every day, i feel like i'm in an endless spiral that i can't get out of. you have no heart, no conscience and no soul. i wish i can say to have never met you but i still don't have it in me, 3 years later. i wish i can say i am grateful to have met someone like you, but it only brings painful memories of what could have been but never withstood the test of time. i wish you can tell me what happened. i know you have moved on, but i haven't. and i don't know what to do.
if i think about wishing you happiness and success, it pains me because it would be without me. it hurts either way. i can't live like this, i need to move on but i can't. i hope you know what you did.