I've not been here for awhile and this could quite possibly be my last post here. I too was suffering, hurting, broken and destroyed by someone that LOVED me so much, but just couldn't be in a relationship with me.
After many ups and downs...I went strict NO CONTACT. It was the hardest thing I have ever done. EVER. But.... I'm not that broken, destroyed little girl any more. After the healing started...I became the woman that I am still working to be. I'm happy..I'm free...I'm in control
My advice... GO NO CONTACT! For you. Do it now.
ps... the ex and I ran into each other, randomly.... chatted for a bit...he told me that he couldn't remember the last time I looked this good and happy. I smiled, winked...said thank you...and rejoined my friends. The future may hold a different path for he and I. But the path I'm on right now is a really good one...it's MY path this time!
Good luck to everyone!