Back and forth

[jstudio]

I just wanted to make this point.. as much I am trying to move forward.. there is always those days where you can't stop thinking of the person. I want to help other people that I know are feeling this way. Just remember it is a day by day thing, and we should never feel guilty for being human. Sometimes it easier to beat ourselves up for holding on. I know this has been a rollercoaster for me personally. I beat myself up when I revert back to thinking of him all day.

[jstudio]

This may sound like a dark song, but if you really listen to the lyrics, it helps in situations where you may feel weak. It's a good example of holding on, but not letting yourself be bogged down in self doubt or blame. Especially for dumpees.

 

"So I got edges that scratch

And sometimes I don't got a filter

But I'm so tired of eating

All of my misspoken words

I know my disposition gets confusing

My disproportionate reactions fuse with my eager state

That's why you wanna come out and play with me, yeah

Why?

Stooped down and out, you got me beggin' for thread

To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head

Stupidly think you had it under control

Strapped down to something that you don't understand

Don't know what you were getting yourself into

You should have known, secretly I think you knew

I got some dirt on my shoes

My words can come out as a pistol

I'm no good at aiming

But I can aim it at you

I know my actions, they may get confusing

But my unstable ways is my solution

To even space

That's why you wanna come out and play with me, yeah

Stooped down and out, you got me beggin' for thread

To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head

Stupidly think you had it under control

Strapped down to something that you don't understand

Don't know what you were getting yourself into

You should have known, secretly I think you knew

(Secretly I think you knew)

Hold it out, whoa

Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better

Hold it out, whoa

Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better

Hold it out, whoa

Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better

Hold it out, whoa

Try to hide it out, but my tracks are better

Stooped down and out, you got me beggin' for thread

To sew this hole up that you ripped in my head

Stupidly think you had it under control

Strapped down to something that you don't understand

Don't know what you were getting yourself into

You should have known, secretly I think you knew

(Secretly I think you knew)"