My Perpetual Dilemma

[AstrallyMundan]

My sweet dilemma,

forsaken by Earthly love,

stolen by the moon.

 

Jealous asteroids

sweep me into their orbit,

a cosmic embrace.

 

Eyes that see anew,

tell me that I shall find you,

a star I'd pursue.

 

My sweet gift, my curse,

your gravity I'd orbit,

if they'd just allow.

 

So stranded I lay,

wandering this lost planet,

circling it's beloved.

 

For too long I've cried,

aching to be found by you,

and from space I gleam.

 

*sigh*, I watch the stars,

glancing at sullen beacons,

their light shared with all.

 

I shine just for you,

in your arms, I'll find respite,

but distance cripples.

 

I picture you, there,

my essential winter plight

lingers with the breeze.

 

Oh, how love eludes,

loneliness broods when you pass,

inaccessible.

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Eyes that see anew,

tell me that I shall find you,

a star I'd pursue.

 

My sweet gift, my curse,

your gravity I'd orbit,

if they'd just allow

 

These bits are the most relatable to for me. Overall this poem is really beautiful and moving- I really like it =1

[AstrallyMundan]

I wrote this in the Fall of 2009 when I was wicked depressed over still not having romantic love in my life, despite feeling an undeniable longing to love from within, I felt as if the cosmos was working to keep love out of my life, because all it's ever been in my life so far is cruel irony, *shrug*, so a strand of haiku written off of the top of my head while crying miserably made me feel better at the time, I don't like to edit something from the heart x_x

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It interesting how emotions can come out on paper. It's a really good and relatable poem

[AstrallyMundan]

I can't read over it without crying XD, I have too much emotional baggage I'm trying to let dissipate, but it keeps on stacking up, and I don't know how much weight my heart can bear.

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Do you want to talk about it? Personal message me if you want to- in here to listen =1