whyumad

You've finally done it. For the past 5 1/2 years you've run from your problems & broke up with me countless times. You played these wicked head games that have me so f*cked up now, but you finally did it. Last time I didn't say a word to you after you broke up with me, but I hurt dearly & YOU came running back out of jealousy since I was dating others. This time I'm done for good, no matter how much I think I love you...I'm done. All these years I tried so hard, but you've finally pushed me to the point of no return. I'm done fighting for someone who treats me like sh*t, who doesn't appreciate me or anything I do for them. I can't believe you'd actually do this to me, I can't believe you'd push me to not care anymore. I cry now not because I want you back, but I'm sad that I have no more feelings left & it scares me & hurts me that this has happened. I fought for us to be together forever & now I'm here, lacking any feelings for you...why did you do this? Are you happy now? I won't be here when you decide to come back, I just hope it doesn't hurt as bad as it hurt every time you left me. I love you...or do I? I don't know anymore. You've led me to question if this was ever love, or if it was just some sick obsession. Idk anymore, I hate you for what you did to me. I miss you, but I don't. I miss the comfort, but not the misery that was daily. I miss your smile, but I don't miss your lack of drive or passion to do anything with your life. I just miss your physical presence, because emotionally you were never truly there.