i miss you still... would be the words id say to you to reply to the two msgs you have sent me. But i do know that saying those words wont make you break up with your bf or want me. I know where your heart lays and its not with me but with him. All i want to do is hurry up and get you out of my system. But certain times it burns me up inside on how much i miss you. All i want to do is forget you ever existed. Im sorry i cant be your best friend again, doing so would bring me back to square one. I wish you were still mine, i never regret anything in life but for some reason i regret taking you for granted i should have made you my gf, but i guess i cant regret that seeming i didnt see you as one until i already lost you.
Im doing my best to let you go, not because i dont care about you anymore. But its the only control i have over this. You dont need me in your life you have found your love of your life soul mate and best friend, unfortunately that isnt me. I guess ill take what we had a use this as a life lesson learnt, because i never make the same mistakes twice.
If i were to be your best friend again, i think our friendship is damaged. Id be a friend to you due to having feelings for you. I see it as your bf now is your everything and he should be your best friend. I know how much you love him. How you talk about him, how you suddenly smile over nothing because of him. Watching you fall in love so quickly with him is the worst pain ive ever felt. I know that your happy and that should be the only thing that matters. Just im not there to make you happy.
I hate sometimes i feel that im great to move on and forward in life, then out of no where a simple moment changes my day and im so sad and miss you so much. But i guess thats how life goes. I cant wait for the day i no longer feel pain. 2 months now, 2 months too long. I know we will never talk again in this lifetime cause it was me that closed the door on you. Sorry i couldnt just be your friend like how we always were but i cant control or pretend my feelings arnt there.