hi, im new...but i really just needed to talk/write about how im feeling right now.i just broke up w/ my girlfriend of 4 years. and it really devistated me. She came from a really mentally messed up family, and i work for 4 years to gain her trust and love. Until about a week ago. I found out that she was seeing other men behind my back. I was hurt and really mad. so we decided that it would be best to try counceling to help us rebiuld that trust. I was all for it. I wasnt gunna take 4 years of hard work and throw it out the window. So we went. And things got better....till i found out that she was sleeping with the same guy that she was seeing behind my back. I found most of this out 2-3 days ago. And Im devistated by this. I dont know what to do. we had planned a marrage in a few years and now....all of it...me getting out on my own away from my parents, and now i have no one. it hurt more than any other break up i'd ever had. i just dont know how, where, or (WHY i should) start again. PLEASE!! someone give me advice on how to start again....
