some days are good- some days are bad..today is a really bad day and I miss him....i know it stupid to try and figure out his actions but sometimes i just cant help myself...i wonder if i ever cross his mind- does he miss me at all- i remember when we were on speaking terms he would say he use to think about me all the time while he was out with his new girl..i wonder if that still happens...his absolute refusal to contact me ..is so weird- cant help but feel really used right now- but i guess by tomorrow I'll be over this feeling..i wish i could stop thinking about him though...its as if he never leaves me mind! this healing process is so annoying its like a never ending roller coaster!