dhaynes0412

Sundays really suck! I have respected NC for going on 4 months now and it isn't getting easier for me, it is getting more difficult! Today would be when we spent time together and of course we are not! The way you left was really dirty and cruel and quite frankly I don't deserve the labels you placed on me and I certainly do not deserve all of the blame! I am suppose to be realizing how unhealthy you are and feel relieved to be away from you, but of course I do not feel this way at all! I just feel the blame and the ridiculous hope magic could happen. I believed in you. People in my life and my own therapist say you won't get better or stick with a counselor, but I know you. I know you will! You stopped believing in me. I will get healthier and I will stick with my plan. We could have worked this out. We could have taken a break, but YOU who loved me more deeply than anyone you had ever been with didn't want to go that route. You chose more misery. I hope you are happy with the choices you made. I am not. I am a good person . I do not deserve this! P.S I hope you have a WONDERFUL Birthday....I really do...I hope you have a good birthday and I wish I were there to celebrate with you.

Why did you give up on me??? I would have never given up on you!!!