Sophia1975

I hate that you blocked me. I hate that I care. I hate that you are so determined to get over me. I hate that over you called me, that you let me hear your voice, that now I've started missing you again, when you've pulled away I again I hate that it was when I'd finally started getting over you.That you'd stopped haunting my dreams. I hate that Ia feel like I"m starting over again. That after two months it's like a fresh wound. I hate that you probably don't care.

I wanted so badly to contact you. I wanted to say I hope you have a wonderful birthday, and that this year is filled with blessings and happiness. I wish I were still a part of it. But I accept that you don't, and I wish you all the best.

Hey you I really wanted to play it cool, to simply do what it feels like you've done, what you're doing, which is moving on, letting go, maybe even forgetting everything that we had. Bu I really can't do that, it's not in my nature. And while I can promise you that I am moving on, I've accepted that this is real, and I am not trying to change your mind or win you back, it doesn't change the fact that we had something that mattered. I'm going to be clear, this isn't a letter that asks anything in return, especially not a response, since I know exactly how comfortable emotions, writing, and especially emotional writing appeals to you . But since i may never see, hear, or have contact with you again, there are just a few things I wanted you to know. 1) I will always regret the way things ended. I'd always hoped we'd last, but the practical side of men hoped we'd at least part, not in anger, but with regret and understanding. If our paths weren't ones we could share, I wanted to be able to wish you the best. 2) I am thankful. I am thankful for the time we had. I love the memories of our early dating, making love, road trips, Duck Dynasty, not to mention, "Crazy Girl" "Booty Man" and "Sasquash." I loved talking with you, and can't thank you enough for getting me through the hard times with work, Anna's leaving, Irene, and my dad's health. I'm thankful for the times i was able to be there for you. 3) Last but not least, I love you. Again, I"m not trying to change the past. If this decision is what's best for you, if it's what makes you happy, then I would never want to change that. You've helped me to grow, helped me realize my strengths and my weaknesses, where I still need to grow and change, to let myself live and be loved. I'm sorry i let my self esteem get in the way of appreciating your love. But i will always love you, in a special Tigger Place in my heart. I am so happy I have that. And I hope if we do talk, see, meet up one day, it can be in a place of peace and relaxed enjoyment. I wish you nothing but joy.