I love that we are finally able to talk without my emotional nonsense getting in the way. It feels great to have moved on so far that I am at this point. I still think about you quite a bit, though. I am still crazy about you, and I want to talk to you almost every day. I realize that you still need your space to get your life back together and to continue grieving from your loss. I can tell that you are making tons of progress, though, and I am happy to hear about all of the things you are doing to stay busy. It warms my heart to know that you are finally able to begin moving on from the pain that you must have been feeling. I still wish that I was able to help you in some way, but I respect your choice to let me go and take care of things on your own terms.
Though we are occasionally communicating, I am struggling to continue giving you the space that I'm sure you need, though you haven't directly asked for it. I don't want to push things too far too fast; don't want to suffocate you. I'd like to hear from you more often, but I fear that is too much to ask right now. I want to do this reconciliation thing the right way, which means posting here instead of talking to you, though I don't want anything more at this moment than to hear from you.
I don't want you to know how tough this is for me to handle at times, but sometimes I wish you knew the amount of effort I have been putting into doing things the right way with you. I still wish only the best for you, and if this doesn't work out for whatever reason, then just know that I will always be grateful that I met you and that I have been lucky enough to be a part of your life.