randy1789

kz91, I blocked my ex from facebook and am trying to completely cut him out of my life. He broke up with me, but I figure the best thing to do in a break up is to erase them out of your life. It's tough, but how else do you move on? I don't think it's personal, and it's probably better that you DON'T see what he is doing on facebook, and can't contact him.

Don't you remember why you came home from Iraq?? To start "our" life together... when did it become about.. me, you, your mom, her husband and the rest of your family.. SHEESH.. maybe I am lucky that it is over.. You never put me first.....

I miss you calling me "lovey dove" I miss having you to talk to every single day. I hate you sometimes, and then I can't hate you because I love you. Sometimes it still doesn't feel real. Sometimes I feel like we will be back together just like everything is normal. We could be happy again. Then, was I really happy??? Or was I just holding on to something that wasn't there? I have a good day and I think I will be ok. Then, I have a horrible day and all I want to do is call you and hear your voice. I want to talk to you again. I wonder what you are doing? Are you really so much happier without me? Is your life really so much better?? How is this what you REALLY wanted?? Would I take you back if you asked?? IDK. All I know is I miss you like crazy. I think about you everyday. There's an empty feeling in my heart like something is missing, I wonder if you feel that too. Am I the only one that is sad and missing you, DO YOU feel it too? Will you regret your decision? If you do, will it be too late? I can't believe I am going through this AGAIN, why did you tell me you wanted to marry me?? I put up with so much from you and your family... for WHAT? So you can leave me when I act "mad" or "upset." When are you going to GROW UP, you are 30!! When are you going to tell your mom and her husband it's time for them to GO so you can live your own life?? Can't you see that it's not healthy to live with your mom and let her take care of you... YOU ARE THIRTY!!! It's time to put your big boy pants on and start taking care of yourself!!!! I am beginning to see.. we never had a chance... Not while living with your mom and having to hear her "comments" all the time. You are so influenced by everyone around you, I pray that one day you will stand up for yourself and stand up to your mom. Stop letting her run your life... GEEZE.. I HATE YOU.. ..... why do I still love you????

I would like to tell him.. I can't believe you did this to me AGAIN!!!! Here is an idea... IF you don't "know what you want." THEN DON'T LET ME PLAN A WEDDING and let me SPEND $1000 on a wedding dress you stupid @$$ hole!!!... =) I feel a little better... but still sad, and miss him... ok.. now the other feelings.... I would also like to tell him.. that I miss him and wish I could turn back the hands of time and do things differently, I miss having a best friend, someone to always talk to, someone to cuddle with and kiss... I MISS HIM SOO MUCH that every night I think to myself, "I can't do this, it is too hard, my heart is dying and I feel sick to my stomache." Then somehow that feeling resides and I am ok again. I realize that I can do more than I thought I could.