itsjustnotfair

i just want to break NC, because i feel like if i dont, you will forget about me. what have you been up to? how was your st pattys? thoughts run through my head, of you being drunk and taking some girl home. and your fundraiser the night before, you doing the same thing. i wish i could just turn my mind off. i wish i didnt dwell.

its been two months since we broke up and im still dying. only 4 days no contact. i shouldve never texted you drunk. i shouldve never went to dinner with you a week ago. you have destroyed me, and i hope you never have to feel this heartache in your life. ever.