ShyGirl12

I miss how much fun we had. Looking in your eyes made me forget about all of the problems I had. But sometimes I feel like everything you were to me, was something I created in my head. I don't think you ever cared as much I had tried to lead myself to believe you did and that's okay because for the first time in a long time, I think I'm going to be okay. I'm no longer bitter and since you've been gone I've found new ways to deal with the issues I was having while you were around and guess what? I don't have those issues anymore. I smiled today, all by myself, and I can honestly say it was brighter than any smile you've ever put on my face. I hope that where ever you are, you are healing as well. I hope that you've stopped sweeping your pain under the rug pretending it doesn't hurt. I hope you're okay. I got good news the other day and I wished that I could have shared it with you but you probably wouldn't have cared about it anyways. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I now know, and can accept the fact that I didn't mean anything to you. A part of me really hopes that you never forget me and you hold on to all of our memories, but I know that's just wishful thinking. You've already let go of it all. I guess I'm letting go too 'cause I can finally say that without getting a bad taste in my mouth. I'm confident that I'll matter to someone better than you one day. Take care, my friend. I wish you all the best.