HauntedHeart

I am really not sure what happened, so I will tell you what I know, whether you bother to read it or ignore it is entirely up to you I suppose. I know that I love you. I know that I miss you. I know that since i have not heard from you something happened to me mentally and July 18th I had a mental break and tried to kill myself landing myself a lovely six days in a mental facility (real high point for me). I know I have been out of the hospital for 3 days all sorts of ****ed up because my brain and body have subconsciously decided to "protect me" by closing off a lot of my memories and the doctor says will take time and therapy to get back. I know that I'm hurting and that you hurt me. And because of issues I already have I feel like this is my fault. Is it ****y? I wouldn't know cuz you not around to tell me any different. I'm having to heal from a breakdown and I'm worried about how you're feeling...so selfless of me to take care of others before myself..so here's the thing I'm just gonna write what I feel and you can take it however. The sad fact is I expect people to treat me like I treat them. I would never ignore you for no reason without telling you why. You disappointed me there.