TheCuteFairy

You slapped my face by saying: you dont love me anymore and that no more spark between us just right after we make love. Considering that i was just arrived from work abroad... UNFAIR! I didnt go away far from the family for vacation nor tourism but to work hard and support you and our 4 kids. Beyond my imagination that you can do it to me for as far as i know youre a loving husband and a loving father but everything twisted. I suggested of giving a little space in our relation being husband and wife for 22 yrs but you declined by telling that what you need is a total separation. So shocking... without any reason? I confronted you heart to heart if there is any 3rd party involved while I am away for work but you lied to the max, you just simply told me you wanted to have time for yourself alone. Though our relationship was turned shaky that time but i dont have any choice but to go back for work abroad, bcoz i am not ready to stay for good. This is suppose to be the responsibilty of the husband to work and feed the family but i did it without complain bcoz i am more professional than you, besides i love you and our kids very much. 4 months after our grave misunderstanding you brought your GF at home and introduced to our kids as their second mom. You dared to hurt the feelings of our young children. Our 11 y.o son told me that 2 nights he was not able to sleep. What can i do more? Oftentimes i am thinking to end my life to end my sufferings but I counter all these bad thoughts through prayers. Few months after i found myself very weak and sick in other country but still working to earn for our living and waiting for the right to talk to you personally hoping that everything can be fix still. When I was granted for a vacation after 1 year of our mis understanding and NC, i thought everything was been healed thru time but of reverse, bcoz as we talk personally... your voice echoed in the room of anger! Your face seems unrecognizable... ??? I am still on the way of trusting myself and loving myself more than before. Wish you the best in your new chosen life... May God will give us merit in heaven.