Staples 29

I miss you. I hate that I miss you. I thought these things were supposed to get better in time. Worse is how you are going on like I didn't even happen. Part of me thinks you don't care anymore but babe we both know you couldn't have faked half the things you did so somehow I know it's hard on you. I caved in and spied on your FB page yesterday and it's all about the girls but you haven't referred to me at all which has brought me to the stupid conclusion that you in fact care and miss me. Otherwise we both know how you'd have a stinging status updates about unwanted people calling (I always told you it wasn't nice to do that). The hard bit was seeing that you celebrated your birthday with your family - that was the cause of everything in the first place; well sort of. So I feel like I failed that test that morning and I'm sorry. I know you said to give it time before we talk but you haven't returned my call from yesterday so I don't know how much time to give it. I am trying to live though. I finally applied for that volunteering job you encouraged me to - I want to tell you about it so badly. I keep expecting you to call me or whatsapp me. Funny thing is I know at the end of the day this is for the best - I just don't want to lose you completely.