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I don't miss you or the relationship and am with a wonderful new man, but am still deeply concerned about the claims you made regarding my character. it worries me so much that someone who i was so close to could want to walk out of my life so drastically, and all because of negative reasons directly related to my character (or apparent lack of). that really creates a lot of self doubt. 2 weeks before the breakup you had that major freakout & admited that you were obbsesed with me, couldnt stop anazlying the relationship, and was terrified i was going to end it. You then explained that you got so angry at me that night because even though you said you knew it wasnt true, you felt like the reason you felt so unstable when we weren't together was my fault. So you said all that!! you acknowledged that your thinking was unhealthy and that you were blaming me for stuff you knew had nothing to do with me! and yet when you dumped me you cited all the reasons you'd previously admitted were not my fault, but the result of your own emotional instability. You've let me worry and agonize that what you said was true, and despite being told by my mother that what you said really hurt me and that i took it seriously, you've never made any effort to be responsible for that. I don't know why you insist on being such a coward of a man.