I have been in relationship (on & off) with my boyfriend for 4+ years. I have been cheating on him with my boss for around a year. I'm trying to make heads or tails on why I did this. I have suggested to my boyfriend that we go to counseling & that of course I would quit my job. My boyfriend (ex) is shocked, angry, dismayed and feels very betrayed. I am so sorry that I hurt him, but I want to understand why I did this.
He sent me a letter that made a list of demands that I need to do in order to get back to together with him. I would have to quit my job and work for a female boss only (that wouldn't involve travel & I would have to be very busy), I am never to see my friends who know I cheated on him, I have to make a full confession/apology to my boss's wife. I have to go to church with him (we have never gone to church together before) and repent my sins. I have to show him that I've done research on the web about infidelity. I, as well as my boss, would have to get an STD/AIDS test (understandable) & he would have to see the results. We would also have to make devoted, commitments to each to be honest, truthful, open, compromising, no matter what the circumstance and it must be verbal & in writing. I would also have to enroll in some sort of class that teaches responsible drinking (he thinks I drink too much or mix alcohols...not true). Oh and I would have to go to the gym three times a week. That's a side note. I love him, but all of this seems so irrational. Am I thinking straight? Should we even be in this relationship together? Help!
