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NC day 1. I did what I had to to move on. I am sorry it came as a nasty surprise... especially, the way I did it (over private message on facebook), was defintely not the most mature/soothing. I had to though. I was afraid I might not be able to convey my feelings/thoughts and execute what had to be done after hearing your sweet voice. I still love you so very much but I really cannot continue lying to myself that I am ok with this arrangement anymore. I've been hurting too much... for too long to continue. I wanted, desperately, to cling onto hope... to realize this fantasy, this illusion of happiness we've painted together and promised to fix... but the divide between us has gotten so wide it is now irreconcilable and detrimental to the both of us if we were to continue... All the best in life and your future endeaver... Perhaps we will be given another chance... in the next life. Farewell.