blaiseit

Bro, I was in your position about four years ago and the feelings you are having about your past actions should #1 let you know that your conscience is working perfectly. You are learning a lesson about your actions and that is good but very painful..very, very painful. It sucks but is necessary. You will be fully out of it in three to six months and the worst part is the first 2 weeks ok maybe three. But, all you can do is have a day or two of true remorse and then man Im telling you you need to get out of the house or apt your in and get something done. God works best through other people so get around them. Give to those in need like donate some time to a soup kitchen for one day or work one day at a homeless shelter. You will feel GOOD and most importantly you will be forced to stop thinking about yourself. Read Read Read...Dr. Phil "Life Strategies" and then Eckhart Tolle "THe Power of Now" I suggest in that order. Learn from your mistakes. It is not helpful to you or anyone around you to hate yourself. You have an opportunity in front of you. You can choose to life if you want to. Be an example about how people change and fake it till you make it bro. All will be fine I promise. Get out and run till you collapse. Lift weights. Learn to play the guitar. Finally Read about God and Jesus. Pray evan if you dont know how to. I like Charles Stanley as a good middle of the road mentor. His audio library online is free and Man he is and was a major component to my daily peace. link removed take good care, blaise