theface71

So which part of unconditional love don't you understand?

New year but the same old feeling of missing a beautiful soul like you. I am sure you were surrounded with people that love you (including some of our mutual friends that encouraged you to break my heart) last night... I was surrounded by loneliness and nobody wishing me a happy new year. Hard to believe I was planning to propose to you this time last year...the funny thing is that despite knowing I will never hear from you ever again I still wish I could have read the poem to you that I had planned to say to you as part of my proposal...and of course end it off with "will you marry me". It is sad that I will never have a chance to speak those words to you and I know there is no one else I will meet that I want to say those words to...sigh.

Never knew I had the ability to make someone so unhappy by loving them unconditionally. A year later since the good bye and I still love you because you are a beautiful soul...and I guess I was too ugly of a soul for you to stick through thick and thin...but you knew what kind of person I was from the beginning-all my good and bad. Guess my bad outweighed the good.

I would most likely just quote some Bob Dylan "I ain't saying you treated me unkind. You could have done me better but I don't mind. You just kind of wasted all my precious time. Don't twice it's allright" Although I still do mind on being lead on for half a year as she told my friends about her doubts but not me...Really? It took you six months to pull the trigger? And you decide to wait until my father almost dies from a heart attack and I buy an engagement ring?