I think i dont want to be with you anymore? You came back yesterday saying you missed me, and that we should talk about it all.. you assumed i wanted to be with you straight away. And after talking and just looking at you i realised i do not want to be with you. I was looking at you, watching you talk and i felt like i just.. i feel disapointed in you.. you gave up and you left, it hurt when you left, and i will never put myself through that again, because you dont deserve me.. i think if i stay i would be staying just so no one else could have you, it would be selfish.. but you * * * * ed up.. and i dont think i want to be with someone who had to second guess if they wanted to be with me or not.. You found out that person you were dating last year is with someone now, you found out your ex is with someone now.. is that why you came back? because i was your last option.
You kept hinting for me to be soppy with you.. wanted me to tell you how i feel.. how i love you.. but i didnt.. kept asking me why i was looking at you.. what i was thinking about.. asking do you look different.. did you really want me to tell you what i was thinking? How much i wanted to tell you to go * * * * yourself.. then telling me how you think three somes are hot.. they arnt hot they are degrading.. why would you be with someone if you could share them with someone else.. its sick.. but its your preference.. maybe thats where we differ.. i have respect for myself and the woman i am with.. where as you have no respect for anyone and you have no respect for yourself. You can continue to live that life, drink, drugs and sex and maybe one day youll see how much you * * * * ed up.
I dont know what ill say when we talk but i have no plans on been your friend and i dont think i have any plans on been with you.. ive already suffered the hardest blow.. the moment you told me you didnt know and then left.. now i find myself not wanting anything i used to want.. i want something long lasting.. i want something youll never be.