dunfalma

SO here i am posting about the fourth guy on these forums, so clearly no contact works. But I need a better picker for men. But we were never official, we could never date and after I left we tried to be friends but it was not really working probably. and i am so confused as to what we were, friends, lovers, more - the label was never clear. maybe meeting again after i moved back to europe would have clarified things. maybe it would have led to more confusion. i am so scared of what could happen if we meet - either we are just friends (good outcome), i end up liking you more than you like me romantically and i have to get over it again (bad outcome), and we both feel a spark and then what? long distance? does it turn into a romantic love story where we are together? (the possibility that this may happen is something i both dread and want). I am not sure if i still like you, or if i like you because i have noone else at this moment. But despite how much I enjoy talking to you, no contact and space for a while is the way to go.

for the last couple of weeks ive been thinking of you and missing you and wishing halfheartedly we could meet. it is like there is a mini void inside of me. but before that i felt fine. you have a new job now. 4.5 months of no contact - when will i be over this??

Today is 61 days of not talking to you. My grief is strong today. I was ok yesterday on valentines day despite remembering our lovely special valentines the year before. I know you were thinking of it too. It was the first valentines celebration for us both. And today I can only seem to remember all the good times. We went from a struggling to a strong, thriving, loving relationship. In the beginning we were not sure we could work out together, but we both worked on our issues and built a great relationship that gave me so much happiness for more than a year. . You were one of my best friends. I still love you. I still miss you. Don't you still care? I know it was the right thing to do to break up since we want different things in the future. I know this. But . I am remembering all our moments of tenderness, the cuddling, the hugs, the tears we shared, the happiness we felt in discussing a future, the grief we felt when we discussed possibly breaking up. . I miss you so much.

6 months post breakup. for past couple of weeks i have been thinking of you and missing you a lot. sigh. i sometimes wish/dream that we will meet somewhere in our 60s and reconnect and grow old together. sigh. i know it is for the best that we broke up and that we cannot build a life together. i miss you though.

thinking of you. missing you. i will get over it.

I dreamt today that i got many texts from you. it set me back a bit , but i am not gonna contact you. 48 day of no contact today, will make it to 90 or 100.

I have cried a bit these past few days missing you, and you are on my mind a lot. I miss you, and wish we ccould be friends. Wish I was over this already.

So we have been nc for 4 weeks. the first two weeks were tough, the last few weeks have been easier. i have some weak moments (like after the date which i enjoyed but as i walked home i thought of you and cried a bit), but i have little desire to talk to you. i am genuinely feeling happy, i miss you sometimes but not much, being single feels good and i can laugh and smile and not feel sad after. we are never getting back together i think, and in the future im sure ill have more sad moments, but the recycling is getting easier and easier. i can say im almost over it.

i miss you so so much. i feel so sad and unlovable

seeing you on dating site using my photos kills me. the thought of you having sex with someone else kills me. we broke up for a stupid reason, i tried,but you dont want me back. and u were never sure u loved me? i am gonna move on and meet others, but why do i feel guilty?

i miss you . feel better than when we broke up (a lot better), lost desire to see you, but i miss you, and i think of you a lot. ran into you in that city as a coincidence and it was SO AWKWARD. meh. why r u using pics i took of u online on kc?

6 week anniversary of breakup, 2 week nocontact i was crying on the plane,train, at home today. I miss u so much. And i know you miss me too. I switch between thinking we shouldnt get back together to hoping/wishing we can work things out. I miss hugging you. Hugs.

its been 6 months since we broke up, we werent very good at nc, but i hate how u keep telling me how unhappy u r with new gf. i miss u. i will never see u again probably. uwanted to visit me for christmas but i said no. i cried today for first itme in months about us - been good about nc so far. hope i finally get over u soon.

Happy 4th of july. one year ago today we met. i am sorry i never said i love you. and now i guess we will be strangers forever. i was fine for a couple of weeks. today i cry and cry.

i miss you. sorry ive been blowing hot and cold - im just so afraid of getting hurt. you made my month. are you missing me? do u love me? a lot of times i think so - other times im not sure. wish you would come over so i could hug you. sorry i ruin all our good times. i miss you.