ThatOneGuyK

Darlin, he doesnt have to power to do that. Stand up and be who you know you can be.

Im starting to really think I was the rebound. Was I not? Is that why we clicked so soon and so strong. I told you you were my best friend once. You couldnt say the same even though we've spent every possible minute together since we met. Im so angry and sad. Im so confused. How could you tell me you loved me everyday when he was always on your mind? I dont want to be angry at you but I am. I feel used, weak. One day I feel strong and the next day I cant get over the fact that you hate me, you dont care anymore, and that youre happy its over. All I can think is that ive been though worse. I know sometime soon ill know that breaking up was the best because ill be moving on with my life and youll still be hating everyone and trying to F your life up. Guess what? Im doing what I love. You still have no idea what you want to do with your life. I ied to help you find it. But you gave no effort. Youd rather drink and play video games. I hope you find yourself someday.

I feel pathetic. I broke 11 days of NC today to let you know I missed you. I didn't want you to think I hated you. I got nothing back. I told you i wish we would have been more open and honest from the start because it sucks that we hurt each other so much. You told me you is sucks how it ended because it inconvenienced you and has made your move harder. I miss my best friend. you got what you needed. you found out that you could have the dresser and that I'd be home if you needed help lifting anything. I guess I just had to let you know I cared one more time. Now I must stop. NC was a happy place for me. Now I'm very sad and it's my own damn fault.

Great song/vid. Thanks

I see that one week after seeing me you're on okcupid looking for casual sex. That made me so angry/sad/confused. What the hell is wrong with you? I can't wait until you're out of my life for good. I can't wait until you've hurt me for the last time. I thought I was past that. One more hurt. Hopefully the last. I feel like texting you to ask you what the hell is wrong with you.

Last time you texted me was to ask how your dogs were. The time before that was to ask for money. The time before that was to put me down. Same as the time before that. Yet, here I am. Hoping you text me, even though 8 days of NC areexactly what I need/needed

So yah, I still miss you tremendously. I know you're hanging out and chatting with all your new and old friends. Im a little jealous about that... But theyre probably not the greatest friends as you didnt talk or hang out with them at all when you were with me. I dont miss your negativity. I dont miss you hating the world. I dont miss our agruements. I miss the god times though. That normal. Im having good times without you now. You would have hated last nig hr. The women were cackleing idiots. They were talking about stupid stuff all night. You probably would have ended up hanging out with the guys outside with me.

The bitterness is leaving me. I feel good. I feel in control now. This NC has done wonders. I thought to myself today.... If I would have known what situation you were in when I met you, I wouldn't have even liked you. You were at your best friends house. The ones that were helping you rekindle things with your ex 2 weeks before. You brought a friend. Someone who was clearly in to you. You made out with me for 3 hours. You made him cry. For a sec, I thought, damn, they should have told me.... but that wasn't their place. For all they knew, you had learned your lessons and maybe I was the one for you. Clearly you weren't ready yet. Thanks for tryin though! But I'm glad we had this relationship. I had a ton of fun and I felt love again. I learned a lot and I'm sure you did too. Best of luck darlin.

BTW, you never thanked me for any of that. You did however dent my garage door with the box spring during your tantrum. Did you apologize? nope.

I'm slowly healing. NC is working. You're leaving my heart. I really don't want to let you go, but that's the only option now. You hate me. I'll be damned if I'm going to make a fool out of myself again and say sorry for the millionth time. Not after you hurt me so many times and lied to me so many times and it hardly seemed to effect you. I wish you the best. I'm sorry it had to end so bitterly. Cya for the last time next weekend. I can't wait to see if you ask me to help you move and/or who you bring to help you. I wonder how you'll feel when you pack up the boxspring and frame I just bought you. Will you say thank you for letting you write off the hundreds of dollars you borrowed from me? Will you apologize for putting your exes feeling above mine? Or are you still bitter because I couldn't handle all this and got a little emotional. It's going to be a rough weekend for me. But I won't let you see that. I love you. good bye.

I really miss you darling. I'm sorry that you think I hate you, and what I had to put you through. I just reached the point where my heart couldn't handle your lies any more. The trust was just gone.

I'm worried about you after what you said last night. That you were homeless and had an emotional break down. You were telling the truth. I'm sorry. I texted you to let you know the money can wait. I wish you would respond.

I'm so sorry that you are hurting. I wish I could help you more

I wish I could have pulled back. I enjoyed my time so much with you. You told me over and over that you weren't ready for a serious relationship. From the moment I saw you, I thought you were the one for me. We were just in two different places in our lives. Thank you for trying to end this on a freindly note. I coudn't let go. You're an amazing woman.

I still check my phone way to frequently, thinking you texted or emailed me. I see you have been on okcupid all night. That makes me sad for you. Sad for me too because I'm still looking. You almost caught me today. You text'd me back only because you wanted to delay paying me back money you borrowed just 4 days ago. You threw on there..."not that you care but...." You caught me at first. I responded with "ok, no prob." luckily I'm healing and i realized what I did. You inspired me Saturday night when you told me that I let people walk all over me and that I'm a coward. You knew I much I loved you and that you didn't feel the same. You've known that for months. * * * * , you told me. You moved in with me. I took you in because you were in need. I've supported you for months through your * * * * ups. Yes, you gave me plenty of love. ALOT. but yet you kept talking to the ex. you tried to meet up with him in july and he said NO. HAHA. I see what you do with him. You owe him money and it's never a priority to pay him back. And now you're trying the same stuff with me. I don't need the money. But god damnit, you're paying me back this weekend. Here I am, I have balls again. You borrowed money from me 4 days ago and now you're telling me that you'll pay me back later? After you told me that it would be this friday when you borrowed it? No, now. I'm done being used.