I always thought I was incapble of loving...too selfish for that...
But one day I've met someone who proved me very wrong...
He was my first love and I still love him.
We we're together for 8 increadible months and then...I found out that he was married+2...it shattered my world.
I broke up with him even though it was really hard for me.
For the first couple of months he begged me to come back to him
He said he'd give up everything for me if only I take him back and forgive him...it was tempting, however being selfish payed off this time...
I though of myself...I know I'm a bad person because I didn't even consider his wife and children who'd suffer if I said yes, but now it doesn't matter why I gave up...
It's been 6 months and I still can't get over him...he was perfect in every way I could imagine(well, except the married part, I guess).
He still calls me sometimes...I know I shouldn't answer and that cutting it off completely would make it easier for both of us, but I CAN'T!
I need to know where he is and what he's doing...if he's ok...
I've tried to date but nothing comes out of it...I compare everyone to him and they don't even come close...
How can I get over this?
I need to go on, but it doesn't let me go...time doesn't help as I thought it would...
help?
