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So I heard each day was supposed to get easier. It's getting worse. I thought that hanging with friends was supposed to take my mind off you. It doesn't. I thought I was this independent person who never needed anyone. Then I met you. I never imagined feeling love like this. But I have. Everyone's telling me to move on; you're not worth it; I'll find someone better. But you're the only one I want. I thought it would take more for you to 'fall out of love' with me. But it hasn't. I have other guys telling me they don't know why you let me go. So why did you? I would do anything to get you back; I would change my negatives. But you won't give me the chance. You're telling everyone your life is great. Did I ever mean anything to you? Sometimes I just want to kill you for making me feel like this. But I at the same time, I love you. I thought you loved me. But you don't. 3

I get that you don't love me anymore; you don't want me. I know I wasn't the best girlfriend in the world. But I just want you to know that if you had confronted me about your frustrations, I would have done anything and everything to change for the better You don't deserve that now, I know that. But the saddest part is....I'd still do it anyway, because I love you