Im still sitting here wishing you would get in touch. I won't, as much as I want to, I'm too scared of the rejection. I just want to know that you are feeling as crap as I do over everything. I wish I had never met you. I want to know you are feeling as miserable as I am, maybe then at least it would indicate you felt something for me. We had something so special to begin with that I am gonna find it impossible to find that with anyone again. Im always going to have to settle for second best now.