Cherri

No one said it would have been easy to love. I fell in love with you the moment I saw you and that was 5 years ago. We're trying to keep things neutral and break things off on good terms. As easiest as it is for you to do so, it is not that easy for me. I think about you all the time and have these mental break downs in my head. Stressing myself out as if it's the only thing I can do. I don't want to love you anymore! You made it clear that you're not ready for a relationship and that you do not see yourself settling down in the near future. (WHY the hell would you continue to be in a relationship with me for 5 years if that was the case!) I have a hard time believing that it was the reason for your decision to break up with me. You send me pictures of yourself hiking with our dog and noted that you were with one of your guy friends. Which I highly doubt because u refused to go hiking with me when I brought it up and in the picture you were carrying a pink leash..... why were you carrying a pink leash if we do not own a pink leash? was it because you went hiking with another girl and held the pink leash because it belonged to one of her dogs??! I hate you so much right now! WHY do I allow myself to hurt this way because of you! I HATE U!!!