MissLizzie

It's been a month since we said goodbye and 2 weeks NC...it feels like a lifetime. I'm ok...I'll continue to be ok but without you it's never going to be more than ok. You've been home for two weeks and I really thought you'd contact me...after 2 1/2 years I thought you'd miss me enough. Do you miss me at all? You go back on sunday - that'll hit me hard. But I'll be proud of myself, proud that I have the strengh to do this even though it's breaking my heart. I guess you're happier without me and that's all I ever wanted...to make you happy so I guess that's one good thing right. You're out drinking with your friends, chatting up other girls and I'm constantly thinking about you. Says alot I guess. I'm sad...sad that you being happy means the end of me and you. We were awesome togther but you gave up and you broke your promises. I doubt every little thing you ever said. I don't feel like I'll get over you but I'll learn to accept you're gone and learn to be happy without you. I miss you w.e xxxx

It's been 3 weeks since we broke up and one week NC and I still feel lost. I know I broke up with you and we've been there before but you lied to me and I didn't know how to get past that. You expected me just to forget it but I couldn't. You said you'd do anything for me and that you could never give up on us but you did. Everything I was afraid of came true and you turned on me. I made myself vulnerable to you and you broke me. You admitted this is all your fault yet you're angry with me and I did nothing but love you - I still love you. Everyday gets a tiny bit easier but thing's aren't the same without you. Sometimes I feel I can't breathe. I go over in my head the possible ways you might come back to me so we can fix this but I know deep down it'll never happen. I'm not sure really I want you back. I miss you, I miss the future we could have had. I miss you loving me. I know you don't want me or us and I know you're happy without me but I'm not happy without you - not properly. But I'm a survivor. I'm scared. I want to forget you but then I'm scared that when the hurt stops that I'll feel nothing and that i wont feel anything like i felt for you again. It's only been a week without talking to you...it'll get better in time.

Me and my ex broke up 2 weeks ago - we've argued/talked on and off! This is my first official day of NC and I'm gonna stay strong and keep it up - it's too hard already though lol Any tips? x