I can do it

6 months apart and I am this close to contacting you. This is the strongest I've ever felt towards breaking NC and getting in touch. I want to know how you feel, what your thinking, do you still think about me, what you are doing, i want to tell you about so many things, i suppose I want you back and i cannot accept that we do not even talk anymore. We used to talk all the time, share our deepest thoughts, fears, secrets with eachother and used to be best friends and now that person has gone. Why haven't you deleted or untagged yourself from all our photos, why do you wish my friends happy birthday,do you want to be friends but are you too scared or stubborn to get in touch? Do you think I don't want to hear from you, why have you disapeared?????????????????? I miss what we had, I miss you! I'm a better and stronger man and look at things in such a different light but I still miss you. We had so much in common, our love was very strong, my family loved you and yes we both made our mistakes when we were together. Why did you tell me you loved me so much whilst stroking my hair the week before you broke it off! Man am i craving to contact you!! I want my best friend and lover back. I thought I was fine, slowly getting there, obviously i'm not!