arrowheart

I'm still in love with you and you know it. I told you this. I realize I was the one who broke things off because I wasn't sure of our future together. I thought I deserved someone better. I may have hurt you, but you didn't show any emotion. After thinking things over for several weeks, I was certain that it is you that I want to spend the rest of my life with. You were always so patient with me, so understanding, you were there when I needed you. I remember sitting next to you on the couch, cuddling up, all I could think about was how much I wanted that moment to last forever. I was so comfortable with you, I can be me, I don't have to put up any walls when I'm with you, I don't have to hide, I can let you see the real me. I know you love me too... We talked about our future together and the possibility of getting married next year, and somehow that scared me. I wasn't ready. I was afraid of making a mistake, and I backed out of our relationship. But now I know I'm not making a mistake. Not marrying you would be the mistake because I know I'll never be able to forget you, and I doubt I'd ever be able to love another man as I love you. I told you that I'm ready, but you turned me down. I guess I deserved it. Of course you wouldn't let me off the hook so easily. I'm still hoping for us to get back together. Sometimes you give me the silent treatment, and honestly I'm tired of missing you like I'm missing you right now. I'm tired of wondering if you'll call today or not. When are you going to take me back? Better yet, don't take me back as your girlfriend, just propose already.... you already know what the answer's gonna be. Quit torturing me... I know it's fun for you... but not for me... urgghhh!!!